Queen Of My Hood.

Some other stuff..

2012-01-14T20:11:00.003+03:00

I guess since you all know about my story with Na9er, it's only fair to share this with you..

Just a fair warning, there's a fair bit of cursing....

So..

Me and Na9er have been friends for so long, our relationship didn't kill our friendship, though we do still hold some feelings for each other, it does not change our friendship in any way. I know he has feelings for me as he has confessed it! He has repeatedly said "I love you" and "I miss you" to me! And he asks me if I still love him! I keep replying that in a way, I do, but I can't in anyway be involved with him because of our past, it was too hurtful; in return, he states he "I know, and anyway I don't do relationships," because they fuck up his brain with doubt.

I went for a vacation with my family, and turned off my bbm - he only has my pin, he doesn't have my number - and so he couldn't talk to me. Keep in mind that before I left, we got into a fight. Here's why, Na9er is going to study abroad, and while we were once talking about him leaving, I asked if he's going to keep his bbm, and he replies that he wants to "leave his past" in Kuwait, and that I'm "a part of his past," THAT enraged me, but I just sucked it up, and put a smile on my face acting like I didn't give two shits about it. But before I left for my trip, I told him I was shutting off my bbm during the trip, and he threw a fit! Asking how are we going to talk, if I can text him, and those shit, I replied asking why did he care about talking to me or not, he's leaving his "past" behind anyway, and I'm "a part of his past" and I SWEAR, if he was sitting next to me, this is where he'd have me pinned down and yelling in my face. He said, "OF COURSE I'M GOING TO TALK TO YOU! YOU'RE Q(or as you know me, Maisa)!!!!!! HOW CAN I NOT TALK TO YOU!!!!" Excuse me, but wasn't he the one who said I was a part of his past? Way to twist words mother fucker. Anyway, I cut it off then, saying that the plane was boarding, and I needed to go. I shut my phone off, and enjoyed my trip with my family.

When I came back though....

He throws a bomb at me.

HE is NOW in a RELATIONSHIP.

I just started at my screen dumb-foundedly.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO REACT?! JUMP UP AND DOWN WITH JOY?!

I called the chick "a lucky girl"....

Now I can handle him getting in a relationship, I don't care WHAT he chooses to do with his emotions or to who he chooses to put them into, I've had enough pain from Na9er, just don't fucking tell me "I don't do relationships" and a few weeks later you're with someone. I don't take hypocrisy well.

What has actually been bothering me about the whole situation, is I'm not sure if he's lying to check out my reaction, or he's being dead serious. I get random bbms from him,

1. "My dear Maisaaa, I miss you dearly!"

2. "Hiii", "How are you doing pretty!"

3. "I miss you" (to which I replied with an "uhh..." and he asks why I'm hating on him? You asshole, you're "with" someone! And also says I'm COLD?! No, I'm respecting your relationship you worthless piece of shit!!!!!)

I honestly don't know what I'm supposed to do! I barely talk to him now because bru7'ha his "girlfriend" doesn't trust him that much:) Ygoul she trusts him, but she's still worried he'll cheat on her, and thats why I'm not giving him a chance to use me as the mistress, nor am I giving him a chance to hurt her! How he hurt me was brutal! And I don't want another girl to go through what I went through!

Help? What do you guys think of this? Is he bullshitting me, or is he saying the truth?

I am being somewhat cold, and my friends say to keep at it, he'll come back crawling like a dog, which he is already sort of doing.... He bbms me daily, hii and how are you kind of shit..

HELP. Seriously. I want YOUR point of view, because people can see things you don't see.. :(

And about the story, I'll post as soon as I can<3

Much love,

-Q;*

My Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 11. (100th Blog Post!)

2011-12-20T00:15:00.003+03:00

In honor of my 100th post.. This, is a long one!

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Sarah stood up, sending her chair tumbling behind her. She kept taking steps backwards as if trying to escape what was happening. As she did that, Faris stood up and stared shocked at her reaction.

“Sarah shfeech?” he asked her, not knowing what her response would be

“Shfeeni? Faris, do you understand what you just asked me?” She yelled

“Yes, I fully understand what I just asked you! And I shall ask it again and again! I meant, and still do mean every word that came out of my mouth! I love you! I want to spend the rest of my life with you!” He shot back at her

She collapsed onto the floor; her legs could no longer carry her weight. And as she did so, uncontrollable sobs began. Faris threw himself to her side, as if he was trying to get a hold of her before she hits the ground, but he was too far.

He wrapped his arms around her as she sobbed into his chest.

He sat there and just held on to the most important creation that has ever been brought into his life.

He let her sob. He didn’t disturb her one bit. He knew her well enough, that when she calms down, she herself would start the conversation with him, or just get up and walk to the car wanting to be taken home.

As she calmed down, with her chest heaving as she took deep uneven breaths, she let words come out of her pink, full lips,

“How will I know you wont hurt me?” she wondered out loud between sobs, “how will I know you won’t rip my heart into shards of glass that will always be in my chest?”

As she said those words, he felt as if someone had his heart in their hand, and with every word squeezed it repeatedly, hoping it would burst in their hand.

“Look at me,” he told her, “6al3eenii.” He faintly asked

She looked up at him with quivering lips, and misty eyes. He planted a kiss on each eye. He took hold of her left hand and placed it atop his heart. As her flesh touched the fibers of his shirt, his heart raced.

“My heart races at the touch of your hand. Do you, honestly, genuinely think, that I am perfectly capable of hurting you? I want a dead honest answer from you.” He ordered her.

She lowered her head, and slowly slipped her hand off of his chest, and onto her own lap.

Her ears caught hold of the sounds of snivelling.. She looked up to find beads of tears slowly escaping his eyes. She hoisted herself up on her knees, and kissed his chin.

“I’m crying. Ana rayal, w I am fucking crying Sarah. 3alaich. La2ny 5ayif a5sirich!” he howled as he held on to her face

She couldn’t stand seeing, nor hearing him in this way, saying these things. She gently raised herself, wrapping her legs around his waist, and her arms around his neck. She buried her face in his neck, and held on to him with all her might.

“Can I ask you something?” she whispered

“Amray. Lo ta6libeen 3youny ma yighloun 3alaich!” He explained

“Mumken et5aleeny afakir bil mawthou3?” She asked him

“Fakray, ekhthay ra7tich..” he announced depressingly…

She kissed her way down his ear, to the back of his jaw line, up to his cheek, and across to his lips. She planted soft gentle kisses across his lips before she locked her lips with his, working on his lower lip. He kissed back, at first, but he pushed her.

“It already hurts to be next to you and know there is a chance you might not be mine. I don’t need the way your lips work with mine to remind me again.”

He slowly got up, placing her on her feet, next to him.

He went to the table and picked up his things, including the diamond ring that is burning a hole in the back pocket of his jacket. He couldn’t stand looking at her. At that moment, he couldn’t at all look at her. He started for the car, and as he walked he yelled back to her,

“Ana na6rich bil sayara.”

She didn’t want to cause any more harm, so she quickly gathered up her things, and ran after him. Eventually walking quietly, a few steps behind him.

Faris unlocked the car, and got into his seat, not even bothering to open the door for her. She lowered her head and quietly slipped into the car as Faris ignited the engine.

“7zamich.” He ordered her coldly

“Oh” she mumbled as she raced to fasten her seatbelt.

“Bismillah il ra7man il ra7eem” he said as he started onto the street.

“I’m sorry..” Sarah whispered out to him, 10 minutes into the drive.

“Yeah, me too.” He retorted.

It was awkwardly quiet in the car, a depressing drive back, nothing like earlier.

They got to their apartment, and they both walked in, as Faris walked to his room, and Sarah reached the door of her room, she called out to him,

“Ti9ba7 3ala khair..” she said as he slammed the door of his room.

Sarah walked into her room, and locked her door. She wanted nothing to do with anyone tonight. She just needed to be alone with her thoughts.

She slowly slipped off her clothes, and walked into her bathroom for a warm shower before she slipped into the warmth of her bed. Warmth she didn’t receive from Faris tonight, in any way.

As she let the warm water run down her back, she recalled everything they went through, what he did for her, what he made her feel.. The only way she could get the right answer was to pray.

She got out of the shower, got dressed, and tuwathat 3ashan et9aly 9alat esti5ara.

Elbisat thoubha, w jabilat eljibla,

“Allahu Akbar” she started, “Elsalamu 3alaikum w ra7matu Allah, Elsalamu 3alaikum w ra7matu Allah..” she finished off.

She crawled into her bed, and soon dozed off.

It seemed like a new day, like everything that happened the night before wasn’t even real! She got out of bed, stretching, while she sleepily stumbled to her bathroom.

She unlocked the door to her room, hoping that everything that happened yesterday was just a dream, that Faris wasn’t mad at her at all! She slowly peered through the crack of the door and was almost blinded by the bright sun.

It was while she was making her way to the kitchen when she felt something take hold of her. It spun her into its arms and gently placed a kiss in the middle of her neck. She giggled and kissed his nose.

“Shno a7ibich anaaaa! A3shigich!” He yelled still holding her in his arms

“7atan ana” she giggled

“7abeebty” he sweetly said, “ana 3indy chem shaghla barou7 asaweeha w barid. Itha tabeen ay shay kalmeeny, zain?” He added

“7ather 7abeebii” she smiled

“A7ibich” He uttered

“Ana akthar” she murmered

He kissed her on her head and inhaled her scent. He walked to the door, smiling back at her as he pulled it shut.

She brewed herself a fresh cup of coffee, and swayed to the balcony of the living room. It was sunny, the branches of trees were adorned with different shades of green in different sizes, flowers were beginning to bloom, and the birds chirped, belting out their joy.

She took a seat on the white-antiqued metal chair, pulling her legs up close to her chest. She took a sip of her coffee, and scrunched up her face at its lack of sweetness. She got up to make her way to the kitchen when she felt a strong stab in her heart. The mug fell out of her hand, shattering into a million little shards, and coffee spattering all over the balcony floor.

She collapsed to the ground with her hand on her chest with only one thing on her mind.

Faris.

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I hope you enjoyed this post just as much as I enjoyed writing it!

Your feedback is just as much needed as appreciated!

I love you all to bits and pieces!!!!!!

-Q;*

A little surprise..

2011-12-19T21:17:00.001+03:00

The long post might just be sooner than any of you think......

;)

I love you!

-Q;*

Dear followers...

2011-12-19T20:04:00.002+03:00

To my loving followers,

I'm currently working on a long post for you. I know I have been such a bad blogger for the past months/year, but I hope what I have will make up for it.

Just hold on for me, for now at least..

And the comments, please. Your comments really help me on writing. They are the fundamental reason for my writing. Please, la tab5iloun 3alay with your comments. :(

Sending all my love,

-Q;*

My Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 10.

2011-12-02T13:05:00.003+03:00

I know I said I'm not continuing the story, but I feel like I'd like to..

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Faris pulled out Sarah's chair, and gave her a sweet smile as his hand hovered over her seat. Sarah looked at him, and bit her bottom lip, so mesmerized by how this remarkable creation of a man, was hers.

She took a seat and looked up at him smiling, he shot her a seductive smile and winked at her. Her heart fluttered like a million fireflies in the afterglow.

They quietly devoured their dinner. It's remarkable to find someone that you can enjoy a moment of complete silence with, and not have it feel like it was at all awkward. It was like their eyes, their actions, their subtle looks towards each other did what they their words could have.

It was Faris who broke the relaxing silence between each other..

"Al7een, bayeeblich shay a3arif inich t7ibeena!" He smiled

"Farous, matyouz? What other crazy thing do you have planned?" She giggled

"Relax mama, relax! No need to be uptight about it! Ana wiyach! Ana akhaly shay y9eer feech?! Thalma.." Faris shook his head

Sarah for a second, looked like someone had slapped her with a frying pan flat across her face! She looked at him and stuttered trying to find something to reply with.

She lowered her head and spat out the words, "Ma7ibik! 7mar!"

She didn't feel Faris get out of his seat and make his way to her. He slipped his hand under her chin and lifted her face. She looked at him, blinking in the dim lights that were along the chilly streets of Paris.

"Mu ila t7ibeenii," he slowly whispered, "elmuhim ana a7ibich.." she saw his lips move forming those words.

She licked her lips wanting so bad to lock them with hers.

He got down on one knee, and cupped her face. He studied every curve on her face, not that he needed to, since he already knew it by heart.

"A7ibich.. T3arfeen shno ya3nii a7ibich? T3arfeen shno magdar a3eesh dinyiti bidounich? My world, my entire universe, revolves around you, always had, always will. I can't stand the thought of someone else ever intertwining their fingers with yours, or locking his lips with yours. I want to spend every breathing millisecond with you. I want you to be the mother of my children, the reason I wake up in the morning.."

3younha gamat etghourig! Hearing him say that to her, made her heart race so fast.

"Marry me." He told her

Sarah looked at him dumbfounded, not knowing what she's expected to say back to him..

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I hope you liked this post! I'm sorry I've been a very bad blogger! I promise to try and make it up to you!

I love you to bits and pieces!

And please, comment! :(

It keeps me going, seriously. No comments is like you all decided to just stop reading my blog:(

-Q;*

:(

2011-11-05T22:00:00.002+03:00

My precious readers,

I'm sorry but it seems like my inspiration for My Knight In Shinning Armor has died. It looks to me as if it's not going anywhere anymore. Though I am considering writing short stories until I find something going somewhere, but that is all up to you. I write to give not only myself, but readers an alternate universe to submerge into and enjoy some time of self-indulgence.

Again, I apologize for my loss of inspiration, but I do promise, that if I do get that inspiration back, I WILL complete the story.

Who knows, maybe I just need a little inspiration from someone to help me write, if you know what I mean. ;)

Much love,

-Q.

Stay safe my loved ones, ou 3eedkum mbarak. xx

My Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 9.

2011-08-08T10:34:00.002+03:00

Awal shay, mbarak 3alaikum elshahar! I know it's been like a week in, but I had to say it:p

You guys didn't get to the 6 comments post!:( ib kha6ry a3aqibkum oo ma aktib post!:p bs galby may6awi3ny!:p

Thany shay! Atwaqa3 wayd ra7 ag3ed oo atshakalkum hal ayam.. Madry laish, bs a7is I will.. Feel free to comment over them, actually, I'm doing it l2na abii raykum.. oo entaw t3arfoun you can contact me on queenofmyhood@hotmail.com. :D

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Faris was going to meet Sarah back at their apartment, and Sarah was hovering around the apartment wondering what was his so called "surprise", as a result of that, when the bell rang she practically sprang to get the door.

She opened the door with so much force it almost sent her flying half way across the room,

"Ola ola!" laugh Faris, "shda3wa yuba!"

"Iskit! Inta oo your surprises!" she folded her arms

he wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close, planting a kiss on her forehead,

"hala b7abeebat galbii hala.." he cooed

She automatically threw her arms around his neck and pulled herself close into him, something in her head kept telling her this is too good to be true.. This only happens once in a lifetime..

They went down to the garage, and as they neared the car, he pulled out something out of his pockets.

"Douray" he told her

"Laish?!" She sprung and looked at his hands, "shno hatha?! Shbitsawii?!" she asked him surprised

"It's a blindfold baby, it's not a surprise if you know where we're going..." he smiled

"Mabyyy!" She screamed

He took her hand and kissed it, "baby, don't you trust me?"

"I trust you! But this is just too much!" She said distressed

He gently kissed her on her lips, "trust me.. I would never hurt you.." reassuring her, she gave in.

She slipped into the car, and he blind folded her, his smile as wide as the ocean.

They drove for 10 minutes, as they got closer his heart pounded in his chest like tribal drums, the closer they got, the harder it pounded, and the louder it got.

He stopped the car,

"Lati7arikain, ana yayich, witha you touch your blindfold, it's all off!" he warned her

She sighed knowing there was nothing she could do..

He rushed to her side, opened the door for her, and slowly helped her out of the car. As she stood facing his surprise, he slowly untied the blindfold.

When she saw his surprise, she sprung around, jumped on him and locked her lips with his, they felt each other's lips moving in unison together, his tongue scraping her upper lip, her gentle, playful bite of his lower lip.

Everything in him throbbed with the feeling of love, her heart felt like it was going to burst into a million little shatters of love.

But this, all of what she saw, was nothing.. Yet..

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Short. ;p

But..

I hope you like it!

Comments please!

Loads of love!

-Q;*

Sick and Tired.

2011-07-26T00:43:00.001+03:00

I'm sick and tired of people always saying I'm "hot". Sure, sometimes it's nice. But for once, I want to be BEAUTIFUL. NOT hot.
I want someone to turn and look at me and go "wow, mashallah, she's beautiful/gorgeous/pretty". Not go "damn! She's hot!"
Hot to me is where someone just wants to bang you! I want someone to want to get to know me because my smile captivated him/her!

But.. That's just me.. Ladies, do you get that sometimes?
Also.. A reason for my venting here is because a male - I'll say male because he's some sort of an animal for even thinking what you're about to read - he said that he "feels" that I'm "a player". Excuse your stupid, low, mentality. I'm "hot", so I use that to play around? Seriously? I KNOW from experience a heart is NOT something you can fucking play with! Excuse my language.

So.. Do you, my sweet readers, people that know me so well, yet don't know me at all at the same time, do you have a say to what I just let go of to you?:(

I've been in such a crappy mood because of it! :(

Love always,
-Q;*
xoxo

Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 8.

2011-07-03T09:09:00.003+03:00

I hope this makes up for the short posts!<3

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Faris was running around, working on a million things trying to get what he wanted done, everything was set, he just needed the last detail and he could go right ahead with his plans.

"Bashray! Shgalaw?" He asked through the phone

"Emwafqeen, bs elray rayha" his mother told him

"7ilfay yuma! Khaly emwafiq?! Wallah 9ij yuma?!" he raced through his words

His mother laughed, "ee 7abeeby, bs mithil ma geltlik, khalik ygoul elray rayha, itha ehya emwafqa, ratheen.." he could hear the smile on her face, it was like what they all thought was actually coming true..

"3asa Allah la ya7rimnii minich ya yuma! Wallah wanasteenii!" He thanked his mother

"Wela minik ya 7abeeby!" she smiled

"Khalas yuma! Ana barou7 akhale9 chem shaghla, enshallah akalmich ib agrab wagt!" he sped

"Deer balik 3ala nafsik ya wlidii!" she warned him

"Enshalllaaaah! Entay tamreen amur yal ghala kila!" he flirted

"Allah y3een bint khalek 3alayk!" His mother laughed

"ELA ALLAH Y3EENY 3ALAIHA!" His rejoined, "yallah yuma, ana basakir, meta ma walahtay digay!" He teased his mom

"Rou7 bs Frais!" She laughed

"Rayi7 rayiiii7!" He laughed back as he hung up

Faris was like that, he laughs and jokes with everyone, his mother, his aunts and uncles, its one of those things that makes a person a little more bearable, and what makes his presence that much of a joy, and not an annoyance.

Finally, he thought, he could get his plans in order! They can start as soon as possible!

He dialed Sarah's number on his phone, and waited impatiently for her to pick up

"Aloo" She said sounding kind of distracted

"Ya hala! Hala b7abeebat galbii! Hala bizaiiiiiin!" He flirted

She started giggling over the phone, "hala 7abeebyyy!" she replied, and he knew she was blushing as she said that

"Ya 7elu hal 9ouuuut, oo ya 7elu kelmat 7abeeby ley6la3at minech!" he flirted

"Farous! Sh6arii 3alaiiiik! Wayed ga3d tghazil!" she giggled

"Mn 7agyyy! 3endy elzain kila oo maghazil? Yanaiiiiit?" he asked her

She giggled through the phone uncontrollably

"7abeebty, 7ubi, 7ayaty" he called her

"Hala ru7ii" she told him

"Elyoum I want you to get dressed up, I've got a surprise for you.." he told her, his heart beating at a million beats a second

"Surprise shnu ba3ad? Faris tadry I don't like being surprised knowing there's a surprise, you'll just make me ditch the whole thing!" She warned him

"Laa! Don't ditch! We're going for dinner, but get dressed up baby, I wanna show my woman off!" He teased

"Show off to who yal khibil?!" She laughed

"The city of love my love!" He told her finishing it off with a long "mmm-mmm!"

"Maynoun! You're insane!" She laughed

"Ma7ad yanany ghayrich!" He confessed

"Okay! Asfa!" She laughed, "khalas, I'll get dressed up, cham elsa3a maw3idna?" She asked

"a vingt heures, ma belle" he told her in French

"D'accord ma cheri.." she told him in a soft, sweet loving voice

"3athabii entay!" he told her, "a7ibich.." he trailed off

"ana akthar 7abeeby.." she smiled to herself, "yallah, ana akhali9 mn ilee 3indii wily 3alay oo ashoufik ba3d shway"

"Khalas 3ayal 7abeebty, akhaleech ana, 7i6ay balich 3ala nafsich, tara mali ghayrich!" he told her

"Enshallah 7abeeby" she tantalized the strings of his heart

As she hung up, she wrapped her fingers around the little diamond necklace adoring the contours of her neck and collar bone, letting her mind drift away, she couldn't help but think of all the things she went through that brought her to where she is..

She smiled and plugged her headphones into her ear, as the crossing lights turned from red to green, Carrie Underwood's Lessons Learned started playing, she carefully took her steps, letting her gold sequined Louboutin pumps carry her gracefully.

She smiled while she heard the words that so perfectly explained her life,

"Every tear that had to fall from my eyes, everyday that I wonder how I get through the night, every change life has thrown me, I'm thankful for every break in my heart, I'm grateful for every scar.. Some pages turned, some bridges burned, but they were lessons learned.."

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Enjoy!:* I promise to post soon!

6 comments, and new post!

Much love,

-Q;*

My devoted readers;

2011-06-23T18:36:00.001+03:00

To my devoted readers;
I'm very sorry to say that my laptop has OFFICIALLY died. I'm not sure if there is a laptop heaven, but I hope it's up there!

I'm going to have to post from either my phone, or my iPad.

So in that case, I'd like to take YOUR ideas, would you prefer if I post small posts about every week, for example post 8-A, or long posts that might take longer for me to post?

The decision is yours! I'm going to keep writing! There's no doubt about that! And yes, I AM BACK! And boy do I hope to keep pulling you in with some twist of events! But how I decide to do so is yet to be known..
So, small posts (Part 8-A/8-B) or long posts (takes longer to post).
Choose wisely!;P

- Q;*

My Knight in Shinning Armor - Part 7

2011-06-01T20:20:00.001+03:00

I'm sorry for the delay! But I've just been sidetracked with a lot of stuff.. Drama and all of that crap.. But I'm back!
Missed me?:(

Anyway.. Here we go..

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"Mayseer kha6rik ila 6ayib 7abibiiii! Khalha 3alay!" said the voice on the other end of the phone

"Sma3nii 3adil f9aiiiil! Abii hal wa6ii ywakher 3an Sarah! Wentaw elwa7eedeen ilee tigdiroun 3alayh!" Faris told the voice on the other end, now we know as Fai9al, in a harsh tone.

"Ee yal 7abiiiiib! E7na en3arifla!" Fai9al comforted his friend

Faris couldn't handle Yousef, it's not that he was scared or any of those, but that he was too far.. So he called up his good buddies.. Do the job for him since he can't.. Yousef is in for a big one..

The men each waited outside the cafe that Yousef usually hung at after class with his friends, they've watched him long enough to know that the kid leaves at 8, and retires to his apartment watching TV or getting some school work done.

As he left, they followed him down a few blocks.. He noticed, so he just kept walking, until Fai9al nodded at the guys that were with him, and they jumped Yousef.

They held a knife to his throat and stomach, and a gun to his head..

"Yousef liflanii? E7na yayeen bes enwa9ilik Hal kalam.. Ba3id 3an Sarah liflanii. Hal mara, binkhaleek ib tahdeed.." he told him as he slowly cut a shallow cut on his abdomen straight through his shirt, "bs elmara elyaya, feeha dam. Wenta wild omik elwa7eed.. 7i6na 3ala balik zain.. E7na ma nel3ab.. E7na min rejal il af3al!" and with that said, they left him terrorized.

The wound wouldn't need stitches or anything, all it needed was some cleaning with an antiseptic, and a band-aid on top, good as new.

When Faris got news of how they did it.. It was time to celebrate..

He knew how he could do that.. Though it needs a decent amount of planning, a few phone calls and his plan would be set!

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I know! It's not long! But it's all I could do right now! But I promise to make it up to you!
Comments please! 6 comments, new post! Longer one if I get more comments;)

I love you! So much! Thank you for being loyal readers! And for keeping me writing through it all!

- Q;*

My Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 6.

2011-03-03T09:16:00.002+03:00

"Noor??" Sarah asked shocked, "hallaaaaa! Shlounich?! Shnu hal 9dfa el7ilwaaaa?!" Noor said with a hint of hate in her voice.
Questions ran in Noor's head, why? How? When?
Why was she here with this guy and not Yousef?
How did she meet this guy?
When did she meet him?!

But she was just about to find out.

"Noor! Hatha wild 3amity Faris!" Sarah smiled as she introduced Faris to Noor.
"Hala, Ana Noor liflanii," she said shaking his hand
"welni3im" Faris said finally connecting the dots in his head as he looked at Sarah.
"Allah yin3am eb7alik!" Noor said coldly.

"Haaa! Shimsawya hnee?!" she turned to Sarah.
"wallah yaya ejaza!" Sarah lied
"Ee! Zain etsaween! Mita rada Amreeca inshallah?" she asked her, the girl was digging in.
"3ugb Chem youm inshallah!" she lied again.
Sarah hated this lying thing. She avoided lying.
"Inshallaaaaaah! Ha 3ayal! Lema tou9leen! Kalmeeniiii! Ni6la3 for dinner!" she winked
"7ather! Tamreen amir yal ghalya!" she kissed up to her.
"Yallah 3ayal, Ana asta2thin! Ghalya ikhtii tan6irnii!" she smiled
"Allah wiyach" Sarah and Faris said in unison.

Sarah turned to Faris,
"Ikhit Yousef?" Faris asked mad
Sarah lowered her head, "ee..." she trailed off.
"LA7GEEENICH LAY HNEE?!" he almost yelled
"Madrii Faris! Lat9arikh!" she screamed with tears running down her eyes
"Ana asif 7abeebtii.." he told her, pulling her close into his arms, he planted a kiss on the crown of her head, "mu qasdii asarikh 3alaich.." he said kissing her down her forehead, to her nose, then her lips, "Ana a7ibich, oo maby ay a7ed yakhthich minii." he explained to her.
"ma7ed ra7 yigdar yakhithnii minik.." she told him looking into his eyes..
With that look, he knew that what she was saying was true.. And as long as he lived, he would keep her safe, if it would cost his life, he would keep her safe.
He pulled her closer, lifting her head up and lowering his, he pushed his lips on hers, and their lips moved in sync with each others. He could taste the candy flavored lip gloss she applied over her lipstick, he could taste the flavor of the hot chocolate she just had that still lingered on her tongue.

But still..
There's something he has to do..

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I know it's been long! I know it's not a long post! But I hope you like it! And I promise I'll try to post as soon as I can!

Feedback! Comments are appreciated! :*

Loads of love,
- Q;*

My Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 5.

2010-12-28T21:48:00.004+03:00

Sarah was out with Faris, they were planning on having breakfast at Lenotre down the Champs Elysees.

She had her hair down, with a beenie on her head, a short long sleeved, high neck, black dress that fell right at the middle of her legs, wool tights, and a pair of towering high Red Christian Louboutin pumps.

She looked very French, and Faris was making fun of her for that.

"Ana ma abi wa7da very french! Ana abi my Kuwaiti woman!" he laughed

she tiptoed over to him,

"ma tabii wa7da, mixed?" she giggled

"Itha ihya intay it doesn't matter, you want to know why?" he asked her

"Let me guess, won't you?" she interrupted with a smile on her face

"guess....." he trailed off

she got closer to him, stood on her toes, and put her nose to his,

"la2na you love me" she said and pushed her lips up to his

he pulled away

"mmm I love when you do that.. and yes, because I'm head over heels in love with you.." he told her

"Madame et monsieur, votre table est prete" the waiter told them

"Merci" they said in unison

She intertwined her fingers with his and made their way to their seats

As she sat there and saw Faris eat his breakfast, she started to think.. could he be the one she lives her whole life with? Could she be able to love him unconditionally, could he love her unconditionally?

She looked at him, and looked at all his features.

The light brown eyes rimmed with long black lashes, the straight nose which he got from his father's side of his family, the thin lips, and the strong jaws.

She wanted to reach her hands out and trace each and every bump on his face.. but she just sat there, with her cup of hot chocolate in her hand and stared at him, stared at the man she would hope to live the rest of her life with, the man she would love to call the father of her unborn children.

Faris chewed on his last bite of pain au chocolat as he payed the bill. Sarah ran her index finger over her lips, it was a habit she had after licking her lips.

She took a deep breathe as she stepped out of the restaurant, and started skipping and giggling.

Faris started laughing at her, it was these quirks she had that were so random that he loved. The way she gets so excited when she says a story, the way she pouts when she doesn't get her way, all the little things.

"Lat6ee7eeeen!" he yelled

"You'll carry me if I do!" she yelled

"I'll heal you!" he yelled back

she ran to him and threw her arms around him,

"baby you already make me feel superhuman!" she giggled

"cliche ya 7ilwa?" he laughed

"Very!" she laughed with him, "A9laaaan! You're the peanut butter to my jelly!"

he couldn't stop laughing, he picked her up from her waist, and twirled her around, she threw her arms in the air and laughed like a 5 year old.

Faris put her down, and she threw her arms around his neck,

"I love you" she told him and smiled

He loved the way she smiled, she had a dimpled smile, two to be precise, and he adored them.

He kisses the rim of her lips, and hugged her.

"I love you more, ya um e3yali" he whispered in her ear with their arms around each other.

Right then, someone came and tapped her on her shoulder,

"Sarah?" the voice said

She turned around....

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Comments!

I love you!

-Q;*

My Loves!

2010-12-17T14:36:00.001+03:00

My dear readers! I've posted part 4! But it's in the September month:/
I hope you like it! And don't forget to comment please!

Loads of love;

- Q;*

Thoughtssss..

2010-11-29T19:22:00.001+03:00

I never thought I'd say this.. But I'm actually thinking of closing my blog..
I don't get any feedback from any of you. My last post had 4 comments, and I've got a little over 50 followers.
I love you all, but I can't write if I don't know how you're feeling about my stories! What is the point of writing when you're not reading?
If I know you're still reading, I'll keep writing and you'll get a post pretty soon...

Please, leave your thoughts on here, and I'll be able to reply soon enough hopefully!

I love you! x

- Q;*

My Knight In Shinning Armor - Part 4.

2010-09-03T23:41:00.006+03:00

Get ready.

;)

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"Sarah," Faris said, "garbay"

"Hala?" She told him

"Come closer! I want to tell you something" he said in a voice that couldn't help but get her curious

"Shino?" she asked her mouth gaping

He leaned in and pushed his lips on hers

Sarah instantly closed her eyes.

She felt his lips move perfectly in sync with hers, she didn't fight back, it was like she was waiting for this too, and secretly she was...

All her life.....

she let her emotions take over her.. Everything she thought she wouldn't feel she felt.. And she loved it..

Weeks passed by.. It was just of her and Faris, walking around the cold, damp streets and alleys of Paris, hand in hand, fingers intertwined.

He was everything she wanted and more...

If they stood at a cross light, and she just slightly shivered, he'd pull her in into his arms, squeeze her tight and kiss her head. He made her feel like she was the queen of his world. That her every wish was a command.

They would cook together, he'd surprise her, she'd surprise him, all the cute, sweet, cliche stuff that people who are so madly, stupidly, head over heels in love do.

But as always..

All good things must come to an end..

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Not a long post, I know! I'm sorry for that, but I'll keep posting, maybe not long, maybe long, I don't know, all I know is I must keep writing, for my precious readers:*

I love you, and enjoy!:*

-Q;*

PS: Sorry for the delay. AND I WANT FEEDBACK!:( Make me happy?:( Please? Pretty please with a cherry on top?:(

Just a little something.

2010-09-03T17:49:00.002+03:00

You guys, I DO post on Wordpress!

I post stuff that relate to my life, and so has a lot of posts, from cursing to crying, to a lot of stuff! ;p

But you guys should check it out more! And comment! You guys can find me on both if ever needed!

Plus!

Email? queenofmyhood@hotmail.com

Twitter? @queenofmyhoodx

Yes, just those;p

Toddles! xx

-Q;*

My Knight in Shinning Armor - Part 3.

2010-08-27T02:32:00.009+03:00

Part 3! I hope you enjoy it!:*

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It was like a herd of wild horses, running so hard, free, their beautiful manes moved around by the wind.

That was the sound she heard.

It was his heart. Beating, thumping, jumping. Noises she's never heard before. The closer she pushed herself to him, the tighter she let him hug her, the louder the sounds got. The faster those horses ran.

Half way through the show, she fell asleep in his arms. Faris slowly picked her up in his arms, and took her to her room.

He tucked her into bed and kissed her forehead, and as he left, he stood by her door and whispered to her,

"Wallah ana ma adry shnu mza3lech bs etha 3araft and there is something I can do, I'll do it. Even if it takes my life."

She slept so peacefully, she was like an exhausted baby that couldn't wait to go to bed, and when she slept, you couldn't help but ask, how could someone who looked so angelic, be able to hold that much pain inside her?

About half way exceeding her sleep, something happened.

She woke up, screaming, gasping for air, clutching the left side of her chest, her heart.

He's back.

He came back.

She dreamt of him, no, no, not a dream, a NIGHTMARE.

She slowly replayed the scenes of the nightmare she just envisioned, it was like one of those horror movies.

She walked into her apartment back in NYC, dark, only the lights from the outside of her window shone through, and closed the door behind her, the minute the door made a click sound indicating it was closed, someone pushed her back, and pinned her back to the door.

"You're not leaving again. 5laitich trou7een theek elmara, bs hal mara, mako." he hissed into her ear

"Intay, 7agi. MALTI. Tifhimeen shno ya3nii intay malti?! MINE! AND ONLY MINE!" he suddenly yelled

She started to gasp for air as tears streamed down her cheeks.

He slowly moved his mouth from her ears to her lips, and forced himself on her, she pushed him away, but he was too strong for her, he forced himself even harder now. She turned her face, not wanting his lips to lock with hers. She didn't want to taste him. He bit her cheek, and said,

"I told you, you - are - mine." she knew he was smiling while he said that. She felt his hand on the outside of her thighs, he slowly moved upwards, pulling her dress upwards with his hands, his nails jabbed into her thighs, and she felt a shock of pain,

"AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! Yousef!!!!! Let me goo!!!" She sobbed, "MABEEEEEK!!!! MABEEEEK!!! I HATE YOUUU!! LET ME GOO!!" She screamed in between sobs

"MAKO!" he yelled back at her. He bit her neck, her jawline, he wasn't going to let her go, not this time. This time, he's going to make her his property, forever, and the only way he can, is this way.

Before he could go any further, she woke up screaming.

She sat up in her bed, pulled her knees close and started crying, but the way Faris busted into her room scared her and made her jump up screaming.

"Shfeeech?! Baby! What's wrong?!" He asked her, pulling her close

"Faris, please, please, don't let him touch me!" She cried as she held on to his shirt, and pulled it, the way a child does when they don't want to be taken away

"Baby, I promise, a7liflich, musta7eel insan ymid eida 3alaich damii ashim il hawa!" He kissed her head

She cried, more and more, into his chest

"I hate him, wallah I hate him!" She told Faris

"Sarah, 7abeebty, stop crying, I told you, no one is going to lay a finger on you as long as I'm living and breathing! Tikfain, latabcheeeeeen! Wallah ena sra5ich yga6i3 elgalb!" He told her

"I'm sorry, wallah I'm sorrryyyy!" She gasped

"Gomay, come on baby, I'll make us some hot chocolate, and we'll sit outside on the balcony, and you can talk to me, come on" he kissed her head

"Okay" she said in between sniffles

Faris got up on his feet, then helped her up. Sarah put all her weight on Faris, she couldn't handle being on her own two feet.

"Come on, al7en nig3ed bara o ta5theenlich nifas, et'haddeen min nafsech, witgouleenlii what's wrong.. okay?" he pulled her close

"Okay.." she whispered

Faris slid open the sliding glass windows leading out to their balcony and pulled the chairs next to each other.

"Ge3day 7abeebty" he told Sarah as he slowly let her down onto the chair, "digeega warid, basawy the hot chocolate wayeeblich a blanket" he continued

as he turned to walk back into the apartment, Sarah grasped his hands,

"Please, don't leave me" she told him

He got down to her level and said,

"Did I ever leave you? No. Never have, and never will. Ana magdar a3eesh bidounich Sarah. 3umri mara7 a5aleech." then he got up and went back inside

Sarah sat there, staring at the dark skies of Paris, watching as clouds passed by, listening to the rustling leaves of the tall standing trees as little brown colored squirrels ran, and jumped from tree to tree, she inhaled the freshest of oxygen she could ever remember inhaling. She just, took it all in..

She jumped when she felt someone put something on her shoulders. She turned around and saw Faris, smiling down at her as he wrapped a blanket around her, then handed her a big mug of steaming hot chocolate.

She pulled the mug to her lips, and she inhaled the scent of hot cocoa, whipped cream, and a few fluffy marshmallows, then pulled it away and lowered it as she wrapped her hands around the mug.

Faris couldn't help but smile.... He loved when she did that... It was like she was taken to another planet, just by inhaling a scent.

And it was these little things she did that really intrigued him.. He has never met a girl that ever did these kind of things..

It's the little things she did that really made him insane! If he accidently kicked his foot into something hard, she'd giggle then ask him if he was okay; if he KNEW something was hot, but out of stupidity just put his finger on it, she'd giggle, then kiss it and ask him if it was all better now. She'd pick up his laundry with hers even if he DIDNT ask her to do so. She'd make him his favorite sandwich just because she felt like doing it, and he's savor it, and bask in the different flavors that tantalized the taste buds on his tongue.

Things someone wouldn't think of doing.

Because isn't it always, that the little things are the things that matter the most?

He stopped his train of thoughts,

"Come on now, talk to me.." he told her, his blood was boiling, he wanted to know who did all this to her.

Sarah started from day one, she told him everything, she even told him her dream, and how she couldn't understand it because they NEVER did anything! She never kissed him, she never held his hand, they never did anything like that. It was just verbal, in words like, I love you, I miss you, honey, 7abeeby, those kind of things, never was it physical.

A few times, a tear or two dropped down her cheek, but he'd wipe it off with his finger before it even got the chance to touch the ground, because he wouldn't allow her to cry over someone like him, ESPECIALLY him.

That's when he decided no more fighting what he's been fighting for years, it's about time he did what he always wanted to do.

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I'm sorry guys! I know! I've taken a while, but I got sidetracked:$ I hope you like the post!

I promise I'll post something soon! I'll start writing ASAP as a matter of fact!(A)

I love you all!

Taqabbal'Allah 6a3atkum, w3alaikum b2alf 3afya!:*

I love you all!

-Q;*

Clearing some stuff up.

2010-08-27T02:17:00.002+03:00

Okay, so I think the last post got some of you confused. But I'm here to clear things up.

Sarah left Yousef and went to Paris.

In Paris, she was picked up by Faris.

Faris is her Cousin.

They're like best friends, and since they're so close to each other, their family thought there was a secret love thing going on between them, but NO they are NOT together.

I hope this clears some stuff up! I'll be posting soon!

I hope you're all doing great!

-Q;*

My Knight in Shinning Armor - Part 2.

2010-08-24T14:02:00.003+03:00

"Hala bl ghalia! Saroun! Shlounich? How was the states?" He asked her as they left the airport
"Enta ilghali wallah!" she blew him a kiss, "bien bien bien, all good, wasn't bad" she told him as her heart thumped in her chest, he knew her too well, and so she was terrified he'd realize that it wasn't "all good"

"Akeed?" He asked her

She nodded and smiled

They got to his car, a black Porsche Cayenne Turbo. He popped the trunk open and he put her stuff in, she was leaning on the side of his car talking to him, asking him about the weather and how it all was.

"Done!" He said as he clapped his hands together

She giggled at his actions

He came up next to her, placed his hand on her hip and kissed her cheek

"Walaht 3alaich! I swear Paris is nothing without you! Yallah emshay, I'm sure you need some food" he told her and started towards the drivers seat

"You know me too well Farous!" She said and walked to the passengers side

He drove her down the Champs Elysees, around the Arc De Triomphe and down to Cafe Esplanade.

She looked at the skies, she looked at all the couples walking next to each other, holding hands, the man looking at the girl he had his arms around. He'd look at her then pull her close and kiss her passionately. He heart would jump in it's place.

"Saroun?" Faris asked her

"Hmmmm" She said and turned to look at him

"Sima3teenii?" He asked her

"Um, hehe la2" she blushed

"Agoul, etshouf the love birds!" He laughed

"Hehe, shut up!" She told him

"Ya bint el7alal! Ga3ed as2ilich, khaly oo khalty shlounhum?!" He said again

"B5air il7imdellah, they're good.. Babatii emkayif eni 6ala3t min Amreeka!" She laughed

"Ee zaaaain! Ma baghaytay!" He defended her father

"I know, it was about time" She said and put her hands on top of her head to form a halo

Faris is weld 3amat'ha. Which makes Sarah bent 5al Faris. He was 5 years her senior, but they were so close, they did everything together; and for so long, secretly in their family, everyone thought they loved each other, qi9at 7ub ya3ne;p

They had some food, then he drove her back home.

She carried a box into the apartment, while Faris dropped both bags inside, and went to get the second box.

"Waaaaaih! Entay shno?! Ma5ala9tay?!" He laughed at her as she slowly put the box on the ground

"SHEFT ESHKUBRIK ENTA! I'M TINY!" She pouted

"Ya 7iluhaaaaa!" He told her and pinched her bottom lip

"Heeeeeeeeey!" She giggled

"We'll unpack bacher" he told her, "I'll give you some clothes of mine to wear so you can sleep in, embayin 7adich ta3bana" he kissed her forhead

"Okay, thanks baby" she said as she dove in for a hug

"Yallah ta3alay, CSI Miami is about to start" he said as he pulled her into the living room

He sat down wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close. She pulled her knees to her chest, and rested her head on his chest.

And for the first time, she heard something she never did with Faris..

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Adrii, not long! But enjoy!

-Q;*

My Knight in Shinning Armor - Part 1.

2010-08-22T02:28:00.004+03:00

Part 1, just so you guys don't stay waiting for long;p

I love you! :*

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Sarah didn't just leave without having a place to go, she knew exactly where she had to go, what she had to do..

A week before she packed up and left, she wasn't being herself with Yousef, she was being someone he didn't know.

Every time she would talk back, every time she would be the girl he didn't know, he would ask her yelling,

"ENTAY SHFEECH? SARAH TE7ACHAY! SHNO SAR ELY GHAYARICH 3ALAY! WALLAH TARA ANA TA3ABT!"

She wouldn't say a thing, she would just walk away.

She'd leave him standing there, questioning what he did wrong.

Usually a tear would trickle down her cheek as she walks away...

"Akh, widy bs et3arf ya Yousef.." she'd mouth

Sarah already applied to The American University of Paris. Somewhere far enough from Yousef, somewhere she knew he didn't like, somewhere she knew that if he ever thought of going, he'd get lost.

She just knew him that well...

Yousef wasn't the perfect man you all think he is, no. Yousef had a past. Yes, he prayed. Yes, he was funny. Yes, he was nice. But he was known for being a player. Ouch right? How could Sarah, the girl who never did anything to break her parents' heart, be with a man like him? She asked herself that too, but she never could get the answer...

Even though she trusted him, sometimes there was this thin streak of distrust she had. When he said he was going somewhere with a certain person, she'd think to herself, is he lying to me? And when she'd know a friend of hers was in the same place he'd be in, she'd ask them to watch him.

What was good about this was that Yousef, didn't know her friends. He never blended himself with that part of her life, as much as he wanted to blend himself in with her family, he didn't blend himself in with her friends. Weird, right? She didn't care, as long as she could have someone watch him, she was great!

At one point, one of her friends told her this,

"Sarah, please lat3a9been 3alai, bs sheft Yousef y6ali3 bent thanya...." He trailed off

"Okay...." She calmly replied

"Are you okay?" He asked her wrapping his arm around her shoulder and pulling her close to look in her eyes; she was that kind, her eyes would let out everything in her.

"Yes. Mafeeny ila il3afia!" She smiled and looked him in the eye, "I'm going to make him go insane."

"Sarah! Swair! Yanaitay!? T3arfeen Yousef oo 7arakata! Latyineen wetsaween shay tendimeen 3alayh be3dain!" He warned her

"Tadry shloun? Mara7 asawi shay. Kafy ilta3ab ely ana 3alayh!" She told her friend and left.

So you see, he isn't the perfect little angel. He had a past, and sometimes, a mans past follows him to his future, which is his present.

Anyway, she applied, and she was accepted.

So she packed up and left.

She got on a plane during one of those chilly January mornings. And on her way to the airport, she traced the morning dew on the window of the cab she was in, she drew little hearts on its fogged up window. And when her breathe would no longer cover up the little artistic objects she drew, she sat back and watched as he drove her down the roads she knew like the back of her hand for the last time..

She got on her plane, sat down and buckled herself in, pulled out her iPod, untangled the wire and pushed the little pads into her ear, and clicked the little play button. Automatically, Kellie Pickler came on...

Didn't you know how much I loved you started to blast in her ear, the catchy tune, and Kellie's sweet voice started to shake that emotional wall that she built up, the one blocking all her feelings from people's eyes.

it went like this,

"I remember the way you made love to me

Like I was all you'd ever need
Did you change your mind
Well I didn't change mine
Now here I am trying to make sense of it all
We were best friends now we don't even talk
You broke my heart
Ripped my world apart

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn't you know how much I loved you

I can't get you out of my head
I still feel you in this bed
Left me all alone
You couldn't be more gone
From falling apart to fighting mad
From wanting you back to not giving a damn
I've felt it all
I've been to the wall

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn't you know how much I loved you

One day justice will come and find you
And I'll be right there in your memory to remind you

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me

I gave you everything, every part of me"

and by the time she was done, Sarah let go of emotions she didn't think she would be able to let go of..

She fell asleep with tears streaming down her cheeks.. and the next thing she knew, she was slowly being shaken,

"Ma'am, ma'am...?" they said as they shook her calmly, "We're landing, can you please put your seat back in it's up right position?" asked her the flight attendant.

She pulled her seat up, took a deep breath, pulled her hair in a high ponytail and told herself that this is time for a new beginning....

After going through passport control, and picking up the 2 bags and 2 boxes she dragged all the way with her on a 14 hour flight, she walked out into the meeting area of Paris' Charles de Gaulle airport.

She stood on her toes and looked over the heads of all the people standing there waiting to see their loved ones. A hand shot up and started waving, and with that hand came shouts from a familiar voice,

"SARAH! SARAAAAH!!" a loud, masculine, husky voice she was used to for so long shouted

A smiled made it's way on her face, and she ran into those strong muscular arms she was so used to.

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There you go! Part 1! I hope you like it!

Another 10 comment, and you get the new post!

And Good Morning Kuwait! <3

-Q;*

My Knight in Shinning Armor. Introduction.

2010-08-21T03:00:00.004+03:00

Hiiiii! I know! I've taken a while! and I'm sorry! I've just been going through a lot, and yeah, I needed some calm time... but after much anticipation - which again, I apologize for! - the new story is finally here! The introduction anyway! XD

But, a couple things first! 0:) I know, I know! Come on Q, get it over with already and let you go ahead with the new story! But I promise I won't take long! :*

First off, my friend, wait no, my SISTER is now in the blog-sphere! XD She's been here for a while, but she recently moved, I won't say who she is because there was a reason she moved in the first place! But that doesn't matter, what matters is I want you guys to check her out please! 7aboo.wordpress.com It's all from her heart! What she feels, she writes! I'm telling you because some of them have made me cry! Literally bawl! Trust me, it's so worth every second of your time! Check her out!

Second, remember my wordpress blog? Well, I'm going to use it! XD BUT! I'll be using it to post anything I FEEL! It wont have stories, it'll have FEELINGS, actual stuff I'm going through kind of feelings, if I'm in pain, you'll FEEL it, happy, you'll FEEL it, all that kind! So you guys can possibly check that out daily with possible posts! 0:) here it is; queenofmyhood.wordpress.com

PS: I've linked them;)

And now, without further ado!

The new story!

It's called "My Knight in Shinning Armor" kind of cliche I know, but I just want you all to check it out, if you don't like it, I'll kill it! I promise!

Here we go!

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A man, George John Whyte-Melville actually, once said, “we always believe our first love is our last, and our last love our first.” So have you ever felt that? Have you ever fallen in love, and then get so heartbroken that you say, “That’s it! This is the last time I ever fall in love!” ? And then, you fall in love again, but not because you wanted to, it just happened! And then you tell yourself, the first one never was love.. it was just.. Lust? Or hope? Or you THINK it’s love? You don’t have the words to describe what the first one is because you never actually know what it was! But then, the last it’s all the feelings you’ve read about, seen movies on, you’re actually feeling it! You’re living it! The butterflies, the sleepless nights, the planning of the future, the heart fluttering at the sound of their name, the times where you hear their voice at random times when they’re not even there! Just because you love them so much it’s like their heart and soul is TIED to yours.

That was how it was with Sarah.. Or how she thought it was anyway.. Sarah was in university, majoring in Business. You know when fate just pushes you to something? Well that was how it was. She was studying in the states, where she could’ve studied here, but fate sent her there..

In the midst of all the running around, and being there alone, and trying to get her studies done, she met Yousef. She kept her heart locked up so damn well. She was old fashioned in the way that she’ll keep herself until the day someone knocks on her door and asks for her hand and heart from her father. Jidam 3youn kil elnas.

When she’d walk in public, she’d keep her eyes fixed on the ground, there was no reason to stare at every being god has created. If she was somewhere new, she’d look around, to make sure she knows her surroundings well just in case something happened. She was that kind of girl.

But somehow, she didn’t know what, or why, but SOMEHOW he was able to unlock that heart. The heart that was bolted shut, the heart that was locked with chains that could hold a large wrecking ball, the heart that could make people fall in love with it, but it doesn’t fall in love. How did he do it?

He was like the perfect Kuwaiti male specimen. Looks and all. He had the strong jaw, the dark, piercing eyes, with heavy dark lashes that enhanced that mysterious look every girl craves in a man, his nose wasn’t perfect, but it was perfect on his oval shaped face, he had thick eyebrows, he was tall, not extremely tall, but just right, and skinny, the fit kind of skinny.

She just didn’t know how he could do what no one could.. After thinking and thinking, and fighting with her heart, and all her feelings.. She decided on doing something that she never thought she would do..

She packed up…

and left…

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Well, there you go.. The introduction! XD
Tell me what you think, and if I get 10 comments, from DIFFERENT people, I'll post the first part!
So enjoy, and I can't wait to see what you guys have to say about the new story!
I love you all!!!!!! :**

-Q;*

Hola!

2010-08-12T14:50:00.002+03:00

Mbarak 3alaikum ilshahar ya 7ilween;*! W'inshallah et3ouduna kil sina eb9a77a w'salama;*!

I have good news! XD

I started writing the new story! XD

I chose the names! And it's pretty damn significant to the story if I should say so myself! But you'll have to read and know how and why! Et3arfoun maybe by the end of the story, maybe sooner;)

Just stay tuned;*!

I just, absolutely, LOVE you;*!

I'll post soon! XD

-Q;*

Help?

2010-08-03T07:35:00.003+03:00

Hello my amazing readers!
How's everyone doing?:* Good I hope!:*

I have news! :D

I have a new story..

I have it in my head, and I'd be more than honored to write it out for you all, but I need names:/

I need names for the characters.

So first off; if you would like me to write it, tell me in the comment box. And if I get up to 8 comments, I'll write it.

Because honestly, I feel like you're all not interested:( Where are the days I used to write and I would get up to 6 comments on a post?:( Where did all of my readers and followers go?:( I miss you, you know? So much:( Come back:( Please?:(

Second; if you have any ideas for names, both male and female names (unique or common, doesn't matter. I just need names) email it to me - queenofmyhood@hotmail.com - or you can tweet me - http://twitter.com/queenofmyhoodx - I'll write them down, and if I get a significant number of the same name, I'll post it on here, and you can pick which one you like best :)

Is that good for you?

I miss you all, and I love you! :*

-Q;*

The big 5-0!

2010-07-25T19:44:00.002+03:00

Oh. My. GOD!
50 followers!
The big FIVE-OH!:o

I am in so much shock and joy in the same time!
Thank you for each and every one of you, because without any of you this blog wouldn't be here today..
Thank you for listening to the words of my heart.

I love you unconditionally. Each and every one of you!:********

-Q;*

Stupid In Love. Epilogue.

2010-07-25T19:37:00.001+03:00

Stupid In Love - Epilogue
With much anticipation.. Here you go.. It might sound a little out of track at times, but once you get through it all, you'll understand:)

Here we go.. xx

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After Na9er, a lot of things changed.. Both for the better and for the worse..
I lost a love, but I gained a friend. I lost friends, but I gained so much more friends, and I gained strength. I gained the ability to believe in myself more.

I lost Na9er as my lover, but I gained him as a friend. Sure, I miss how we used to constantly text and call each other, but he still calls me at random times, and I still text him at random times too.. Na9er's voice still has a strong affect on me. It gives me tingles and butterflies that are like shock waves throughout every inch of my body.. But el7imdallah, I have something called self control, asta7mil nafsii o kil a7asisi le2ana our friendship is important to me.

Remember in the very beginning of the story, I told you about the time I saw Na9er with Jawa and 3anoud? And how I wish I knew then what I knew now? Well yes, everything between me and Jawa came spiraling downwards a few months after Na9er..

It came up to the point of my birthday, Na9er forgot my birthday, tithayegt.. I'm not going to deny it and say that it didn't matter to me, because it did.. His birthday was still a few months away but I still remembered it and I would call or send him a message at the least saying happy birthday! Wela etha ma gedart, at the least I would get my ass up and wish him a happy birthday via MSN.. I told Jawa, I told her he didn't wish me a happy birthday, and she told me to ignore him, he's not worth it, mu lazim a7arig a39abii o ajra7 nafsii 3alaih..

"you're right.." I told Jawa, "mashkoura 7abeebtii, wallah madrii shasawii bidounich!" I pouted and hugged Jawa
"Hahaha! Shda3wa 7abeebtii!" she hugged me back and kissed my cheek

I didn't expect shit from Na9er after that.. Because when you get your hopes up, they always - well not always, but most of the time - they get shattered.. So I didn't talk to him, I didn't need to talk to him.. It's not like I'm going to get a birthday kiss, or birthday sex, or anything at all from him :)
But two days after my conversation with Jawa;

Na9er;* says: hey, Happy Birthday, I'm sorry I didn't tell you the other day but I was going through a lot of shit
M says: hii, thanks, don't worry about it:)
Na9er;* says: kk

Goul wallah? That's it? I would at the least expect you to say sorry one more time Na9er!
I told Jawa, actually I copy-pasted the conversation to Jawa.

"Ashwah, galich. L2na ana zafaytah, I told him that even though you're not together he should at least have the decency to wish you a happy birthday!" she told me

Welaw ma yet min Na9er ebnafsah, it still felt like something, so I thanked Jawa, she knew how to make things better, 7eta etha kan shibir bes..

But back to how things started spiraling downward..
Jawa was with someone, but that's a whole other story, and its not for me to tell.. Its not my story or secret.. Its hers.. O e7tiraman laha, I'll just state the points where it had us in a jam..

The first time ever that someone saw me, he told Jawa that he thought that I was hot.. He shouldn't have said that, because as a girl, ra7 ykoun feeh gheera! It's only natural! Also, he brought his friend along with him, so it wouldn't be awkward with the 3 of us.. His friend was "tikana" or more like thijeel, mu ebsir3a e6ayi7 elmiyana.. You get what I mean?
Well guess what? Within 10 minutes he was laughing with me and we were joking around! I'm like that, when you get to know me, you'll see I'm not how people put me!
Later, as time went on, we found out he was cheating on Jawa.. I didn't like it, AT ALL! I kept pressuring her to leave him.. Because she deserves someone so much better! I guess Jawa took it the wrong way.. She slowly stopped telling me about what was happening with them.. I used to find out from 3anoud.. Elbint makant tadrii enii makint adrii.. But I acted like I knew everything..
Honestly, I got sick of that; aren't I your best friend?! Wela kan bes esim o shakel?! The tension between us got worse.. When I hear something, mathalan ina Jawa gayla shay 3annii, I would believe them..
One thing led to another, and soon enough we weren't friends anymore..
After that, me, 3anoud and Loujain slowly started drifting apart too.. Loujain men awal.. But that's another story..
I lost them as friends, but I gained other girls as friends, I gained also male friends.. Some who I now trust with my life..

One of them was Fayye. Me and Fayye were friends for some time min ayam me and Jawa were still friends, but as days went by, we became tighter and tighter.. So tight we would have conversations that would go late into the night.. My mother approved of Fayye, she liked her, kanaw eqashmiroun weya ba3ath over the phone and all of those sort..
Fayye never judged me in any way at all.. Instead she used to tell me that whatever made me happy made her happy, and she would back me up with whatever I decided to do.. With her I was really me..
I'm always me with anyone, bes lemma et9eer 7azat elfa9la, it's not the real genuine fa9la that it actually should be..

Anyway..

The day after I left Na9er, I remember surfing the web trying to find depressing songs - because theres something with our sub-conscience that tends to link every depressing song or situation to you; for example listen to a song about losing a loved one at war, if a part comes along and says I loved you so much, I can't believe you're gone; they're talking about death, but you linked it to losing you're significant other.. Unfortunately we're wired that way;p - I came across a song, that had me gasping to catch my breath.

I was standing at my dressing table, downloading whatever depressing song that came along, tears slowly crawling down my cheek, creeping into the creases my mouth made from the frown that was already formed on my face, and into my mouth..
I tasted my tears, the saltiness, and I wondered how I wasn't dehydrated yet..
I wiped my tears, looked at the puffy eyed, heartbroken girl I saw in the mirror, I looked her straight in the eye and told her;
"Maisa. Besich bachy. Etha el7mar lail7een ma dag 3alaich, 3ayal kilish ma haza ree7."

It is HIS loss, I thought to myself.

I was scrolling down the web page when I saw a title that interested me, I clicked on it and waited for the words to start pouring out of my speakers..

A nice easy beat started, and the title of the song was said over and over again..

"mmm.. Stupid in love.. Ohh.. Stupid in love.."
Rihanna's melodic voice said..
Not only is it called Stupid In Love, but Rihanna was the one who was singing it..
His favorite singer..

My breathing started to get heavy. My heart was heavy and my knees were weak. I tried to breathe but I couldn't, my head was spinning and I was getting dizzy.
I held on to the corner of my dressing table, I jabbed my fingers into the carvings at the edge hoping it would help keep me on my feet..

"Katie told me that this would be nothing but a waste of time....."
Right away Jawa came to mind, she warned me..
"and she was right.."

The chorus took it's part in the symphony of my heart..
"this is stupid, I'm not stupid, don't talk to me like I'm stupid in love, I still love you but I just can't do this, I may be dumb but I'm not stupid.."

Right then, every strength I had left in my knees that allowed me to still be up on my feet failed me.
The ground gave way for my body to collapse on it.
I was laying sideways on the ground, hugging my knees to my chest while I let out everything in me.
The tears I cried didn't look nor feel like normal tears, they were like jumbo droplets of water that usually form when you leave the faucet slightly turned on.

The song kept going..and I just laid there on the ground, shattered beyond repair..

"You don't know what you've lost, and you won't realize until I'm gone, gone, gone! That I was the one, which one of us is really dumb?" Rihanna asked

By then, I already started this story.. We were at the very beginning.. And RiRi was the inspiration to the title..

The song doesn't affect me anymore, not in the slightest bit..
Na9er was a phase, mar7ala min 3umry o 3adat.. Il7imdellah :)

All of you, every single one of my readers, now know exactly how I felt towards Na9er. What I used to feel, and what I DO feel now.
And so, I think it is only fair to let you know how I feel towards a couple other characters..

I'm going to start with Fayye;
   Fayye, there's no words to describe how much she means to me. She's the first one I run to when something happens, shes my save haven. I know whatever I'm feeling, whatever I'm saying, it's all locked up tight in a safe, that's located in a tower, guarded by a fire breathing dragon that no one has ever defeated.
We've shared every tear and laugh since the day we met.
A7mid washkir rabby ebkil 9alah ina an3amnii eb a best friend like Fayye, le2na she's not only my best friend, she's my sister..
Fayye, if by any chance you're reading this right now, I want to thank you for everything you've ever done for me, for taking all the tears I've cried, and all the moments which obviously proved I should be thrown in the mental ward of a hospital:p but instead of just standing there laughing, you'd join me on my crazy adventures just to make it a memory that we could both share.
I truly, unconditionally, love you.

Jawa;
   Jawa, Jawa, Jawa.. I know for a fact that you're reading this right now.. And honestly, I don't know where to start.. We've been friends for so long.. And to suddenly have everything yanked out from us wasn't easy on me.. It used to always be just us. You used to finish my sentences, you would know what I wanted to say before I even said a thing, you knew everything I did and didn't like..
It hurts to know that I don't share my life with you anymore..
Sometimes I wish I could just erase all the drama we encountered with the opposite sex.. Maybe then, we'd still be as strong as ever, if not stronger..
I miss you, and I wish you all the best, with everything, I truly do.
And I hope you know, that all the things I did, I did it for you, just so you could see what you truly deserved, not someone who constantly tore you apart.

Na9er;
   I don't hate you, but I don't love you either.. You've made me so much stronger now than when I first met you. You gave me happiness at some point of my life, and I thank you for that, but its because of you, I know that not all guys are bad. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you, and I'll never forget the way you looked at me every time, especially when you told me you missed me.. I'll be here when you need me. I'm still your friend, just like I was at the very beginning of all this..
I know you'll never read this, but maybe one day you'll know.. Just like everybody else knows I'll always be there..

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And with that, I end my story of being "stupid in love"..

Please, keep your heart locked up until you know for sure, whoever is unlocking it is worth it..
I never want any of you to get hurt like I did, because the pain is unbearable, and in a society like ours, love is rarely found. Every hormonal male in our society knows exactly what we want to hear, and so they feed it to us..

Always remember, you belong to yourself and no one else's; like Jessica Simpson said,
"I belong to me, I don't belong to you, I'm one not half of two, so if you're gonna love me, then you should know this baby, I belong to me"..

Your feedback is much appreciated, and I'll be waiting to see what you guys have to say about the end! :D
I'm sorry for taking long, but there you go;*

This is Q, leaving you with the end of Stupid In Love:)
My life in words for you to feel and relate to.

I love you all;**

Enjoy the rest of your summer!;*

Surprise!

2010-07-13T21:19:00.003+03:00

The loves of my life!;*
I have a little surprise for you..
I decided on posting an EPILOGUE for "Stupid In Love" something to clear a lot of stuff up.
I think it should be interesting, something that'll have your jaws gaping at what you'll be reading;)

I hope you're all having an amazing summer! I'll post the epilogue when I get the chance, it'll be worth it enshallah;*

Stay safe please, and remember, I love you and I'm always here for you;*

Love ALWAYS;
-Q;*

Stupid In Love. Post 19 & 20. (The Finale)

2010-06-27T12:01:00.000+03:00

Ahh.. My amazing readers.. My FAMILY. You are the ROCK and the REASON this blog is still alive today. At the end of this post, comes the end of a second story.. Another life you've lived with me.. Another whirlwind of emotions we've felt together. I can't believe it's about to come to an end.. Wow..

Well here goes nothing..

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Something shook my table so hard, I jumped in terror. I walked to my table and looked down..

My oh my..

Guess who..

Na9er :)

El7ilu qarrar yidig:O

Didn't I tell you all? I'll make him come back. :)

I looked at my phone and raised an eyebrow with a smirk on my face before I picked up.

"Aloo?" I said irritatedly

"Aloo" He said

"Hii?" I asked

"Hey" was his reply

"Mmm..?"

"Why didn't you call me?" He asked

"Really?" I said

"Yeah, really" He replied

"Mu min9ijik sa7? Mu inta ile gayilee latdigeen 3alay?" I almost laughed

"I said that then because I was mad" He defended

"So you told me not to call you. I obeyed" I told him, "if you didn't mean it, why didn't you call me?" I asked him

"I wanted to see if you'd call" he said

"Aha. Well weren't you the one who said 'You know what?! Don't call me! Okay?! Don't call me!' huh? Wasn't it you? Or was it someone else?" I asked him stating what he said a week ago, but he didn't answer me.

"Okay. Na9er. Do you want to be with me or not? Because if you don't, I'll just leave." I said, "so yeah, tell me. Do you want to be with me or not?"

"Honestly?" He said

"La, not honestly. AKEED HONESTLY." I said

"No." He said, "I don't want to be with you." he continued

"Okay then. Thank you." I said, "I have to go now, tabi shay?" I asked him

"Wain ray7a?" He asked suspiciously

"Ba6la3 with my friend" I told him

"Mwa3da?" He asked sounding jealous

"NA3AM?!" I almost screamed

"Mwa3da?" He asked again

"Shaku mwa3da?!" I screamed

"3ayal wain betrou7een?" He asked

"We have a Halloween party tomorrow. We're going to get costumes." I said sincerely. I wasn't lying! So why should I hide anything?! Right?!

"Okay.." He said

"Yallah, I'm going to go. If you want anything, message me." I told him and hung up

I'm not in the mood to talk to him on the phone after what he said! Wila enshallah shayifnii sahla ya3nii?!

I picked up my Louis Vuitton Speedy bag and walked out of my room flicking the lights off as I left.

The deal was to meet up at Soug Sharg and get some coffee and then start the hunt.

As we walked around sipping our coffee, something caught my eye. And it was like a light bulb flicked on in my head.

What I saw were a pair of ears. Yes. EARS. Kitten, Leopard, and Rabbit ears.

I stopped in my tracks and looked at the stand outside of Claire's... Hmm.. Call them or not? I'M SO CALLING THEM!

I called Jawa and 3anoud and told them of what I found, and I put out my cards.. My idea..

I'd get us each a set of ears. The same color. And we'd get all dressed up as cats. Sexy, feisty cats. Something that would make a guy in the street stop and stare. Make him fantasize of what she could possibly do if she would flirt with him. THAT type of cats;) They were in. They were so excited over this, it's the first time we ever went to the extreme with costumes.

Now, the next night.. Was when we'd shock all the party people.

The night of the party; the girls came over to my place to get ready.

I remember me and Na9er were constantly texting that night, but why, or over what I'm not sure. :s

You know when Charlie's Angels walk in somewhere? How the three of them look so different, yet are so connected in some way? Yup! That was us when we walked in.

We payed our formalities with the other girls, then picked our sofa.

I remember him calling me in the middle of the party. He told me to hang up, but I wouldn't allow it. He had to let it out. And so, he told me that he was no good for me, but me, being the stubborn girl that I am, I told him off. I told him that it was my decision, and that it was my heart on the line, and not his. He also told me that he doesn't deserve my love, and yet again, I told him that it's not up to him who I fall in love with, and it's not something I can control.

That kind of killed my party buzz..

But my girls were quick to bring it back up, and I loved them for doing that!

But the real drama was yet to come..

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The Finale

The day after the party, I sat and thought to myself..

Maybe he has a point..

I tried..

I gave him my heart.. I cried so much over him.. I called, I practically begged him to make me his!

Wow, that looked like I was desperate..

Maybe someone else deserves my love? Someone who'll love me so much better than Na9er has ever loved me..

I kept thinking..

And my heart, and my mind was torn between two, to either walk away or to take whatever Na9er flings my way..

I called Jawa and talked to her for approximately an hour.. We weighed the pros and cons of my situation.

Na9er was a great guy, RAYYAL! He's a man for Gods sake! He can keep me safe! Someone lays a finger on me, he'll break it! He LOVES kids! Which shows he'll be a great father one day..

He was flirty, that's good and bad..

And the list went on and on..

It all weighed each other out..

I had my answer...

This is the end of the road for us..

I couldn't call Na9er..

Just the sound of his voice would make me stay..

I had to do it the easy way..

Easy, but still tough..

It was through MSN..

I got online, with me fighting back tears. Chocking on them actually..

I opened a conversation with him..

And that's when all the tears came rushing out, like a waterfall that drowned my eyes, I could barely see what I was typing.

"Na9er. I've had enough. You had a point. I deserve someone better. And that's what I'm doing. I'm leaving. I'm erasing you out of my life. Bye. And I swear to you, you'll never find someone like me, you just wait and see."

I clicked enter.

Then I clicked block.

And last but not least. I clicked DELETE.

Part one, accomplished.

Next,

I deleted all his messages, cleared out my call log, and turned off my phone.

Part two, complete.

Now, for part three..

The depression, and the crying..

Man, oh man..

I locked myself up all week.. I cried and cried and cried..

And because of the depression, I BEGGED for a trip to the chalet. And.. I got it.. I need this..

It's been a while since I got on MSN from my phone, and when I did, he was there..

Yeah, you read that correctly, HE was there! As in NA9ER was there! On my contact list! Are you kidding me?! Are you fucking messing with me?!

Na9er says:

Hey

M;* says:

Na9er says:

Why's your phone turned off?

M;* says:

Because I turned it off?

Na9er says:

I need to talk to you

M;* says:

Not now. I'm going to bed.

Na9er says:

Can you call me tomorrow? Please.

M;* says:

Khair enshallah. I'll see what I can do.

Na9er says:

Please. And thank you.

I think he lost his mind. NOW he's looking for me?!

Na9er.

Two words baby.

FUCK OFF.

But..

After he told me that he needed to talk to me, there is no way in hell that I can let it go. I WANT to know now.

That dude knows how to push my buttons, and I hated that :(

I went to sleep with nothing but curiosity.. Hey, don't judge me. When you put yourself in my shoes, you'd probably know how it feels.

I woke up at around 8am. Min Allah, chithe ga3adt eb hal 7ezza. I washed up and got dressed and headed out for a morning walk.. It was refreshing.. The morning breeze, the music tantalizing every nerve in my brain.. I loved it..

Around 9am, I turned on my phone to find a message from Na9er, asking me to call him when I see this. His message came at around 8:45-ish in the morning..

I took a deep breath, and called him.. And within a few rings, he picked up..

"Aloo" he said

"Hii.." I whispered

"It's nice to hear your voice.." he told me

"Yours too.." I said

"Shlounich?" he asked me

"El7imdellah, I'm good.. What about you?" I asked

"Good good.." He trailed off

There was an awkward silence before I asked him,

"What was it that you wanted to talk to me about?"

"Maisa, awal shay, abii at2aseflich for everything I said.. I'm sorry, I was a complete jerk.. I didn't mean to do that to you.." he said

"Mmm.." I said

"You didn't deserve that.." he told me

"Na9er, I cried like fuck over you." I told him

"You said you get over someone fast" he reminded me

"I know what I said. And yes I do. But I kept everything bottled up inside until I finally broke down!" I jabbed into him

He was quiet..

I was quiet..

I just breathed into the phone.. It slowly got heavier at the sound of his voice, and how apologetic it sounded.. But I took a deep breathe and calmed myself down before I would allow a tear to come rolling out.

"Well, I called to apologize to you. And I want you to forgive me for everything I've done to you.. I didn't mean it. I just wanted to push you away, but I didn't know how, and I guess I did it the wrong way.. We're grown, and just cutting things off like that seems childish.." he said

"Yup, we're grown.." I repeated

"I mean, also, it's with my friends.. Like for me, when I get involved and I get attached then lose them, I just stop caring about everything, and I just can't afford that now.." he said

"Na9er! You don't just drop everything! You use it as a way to help you cope! To keep yourself busy!" I laughed

"Yeah, well I'm not like that.. I lock myself up.. I stray from my friends, I stop studying, and I just don't care.." he said

"Yeah, well you don't have to worry about that anymore.." I smiled

"I guess.. But I still want us to be friends.. And again, I'm sorry for hurting you.." he said again

"Don't worry about it!" I told him, "I'm sorry hun, but I have to go.." I acted disappointed

"It's okay.." He said, "and thank you for hearing me out.."

"Nooo problemmm!" I said, "Later.."

"Later" he mimicked

Wow.. Funny how everything turns out, eh?

I re-added Na9er to my MSN contact list.. We talked a couple times.. We became friends.. It was.. NORMAL.

But one day..

One day..

What I said would happen, HAPPENED.

Me and Na9er were talking.. And he asked me..

"Do you miss me?"

I was in awe.

Seriously? Did he just ask me that?

"Honestly?" I asked him

"Yes" he replied

"Sometimes.. I do.." I told him, "I don't miss the pain, but I sure miss all the fun times we had.." I added

"K" was his reply

Hurts, yeah? It's good you got a taste of your own medicine..

"Do YOU miss ME?" I asked him {PS: I was being sarcastic :)}

"Yes.." He said

"How much?;p" Kint ga3da asta3bi6, mu min 9ijjy! :O

"Alot.." he admitted..

My heart, STOPPED.

It happened.

I made him miss me.

Even though I brushed that encounter off, we still talk, and he still calls sometimes. Not like best friends, but we ask about each other from time to time.. And honestly, it's nice to know that I didn't lose him.. We were friends before this started.. Well, not for long, but we were friends.. And it was fun..

And I guess the answer to that question of, "Can you be friends with your ex?", is yes. As long as you both can put your differences aside, and be there for each other, and support each other.. Then it's all good..

My story with Na9er hasn't ended.. It's a start of a new friendship. I might never be his girl, and he might never be my man.. But in the end of the day, I know that if I need someone to lean on, he's there for me.. I leaned on him when there was tension with me and my friends, with me and my mother, with my brother, with anyone.. And he was there, he gave me advice that helped me with whatever situation I'm in..

A part of me will always love Na9er as more than a friend, I'll always remember him as my first kiss, I'll always remember the way his eyes look, and how he looks at me sometimes. I'll always remember how he laughs, and how he smiles that devilish smile of his.. Maybe I'll get jealous when I know he's not mine, that's just how us girls are.. But I know, in my heart of hearts, that I'll always be happy for him no matter who he's with, or what he's doing. As long as he's happy, I'll be more than happy..

There will always be that special someone that'll come into your life and affect you in so many way, good or bad, but it'll just show you how life is unpredictable, and how the slightest change, can change the course of nature completely.

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Wow.. The end of another story.. How overwhelming.. But that's another step you guys moved forward with me..

I love you all!

Thank you for all the support you've given me through this whole year! And yes, WOW! It HAS been a year! Oh my Gosh!

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Have an amazing summer! Enjoy it wherever you guys are!

And hopefully, when I get back, I'll have something new for you all:*

I love you;

-Q;*

Stupid In Love. Part 17 & 18.

2010-06-25T09:24:00.012+03:00

I'll be out of here soon......

And if I get everything out perfectly, the story might end at part 20....

And hopefully, as soon as I get back, I might start another story... Lets see how well inspiration works with me while I'm gone, shall we? ;)

Each and everyone of you mean so much to me! Your support makes me so much stronger! Thank you! No matter how many times I say thank you, it won't be enough!

You don't know me, yet you're like my best friend! Living each moment with me, feeling what I'm feeling! I hope I give out as much emotion as I feel while writing these posts for you:*

So....

Without further ado, here's part 17 of Stupid In Love. :)

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"Yallah, thilfay. Bye" and he hung up.

Na9er said that to me.

Was I dreaming it.

What was going on?!

What did I miss?!

What did I do?!

NA9ER!

WHAAAAAT?!

There, I looked like someone slapped me. So hard, my eyes were bulging out. So hard, my jaw dropped open, so big, I could feel the grass bristles on my chin.

"Uhh.. Uhhh.." I said, looking at Layal

"Shfeech?!" She asked

She ran to me and sat on the ground in front of me. She looked up to my eyes and saw the shock. It was practically like electric volts shooting out.

"SHGAL!?" she yelled

"Gally.. Gally.." I stammered

"SHGAL! TA7ACHAY!" She shook me

"Gally.. Thilfay.." I said and looked her back in her big dark brown eyes

"You're kidding right?" she asked me

"No.." I said in a low voice

"Snap out of this and fight back!" She told me

I got up, took a deep breathe, and walked away..

"Maisa!" She yelled

"Wait, you just wait.." I said

"MAISA! RIDAY 3ALAY!" She screamed louder

I turned around and looked at her.

I pulled out my phone, and punched Jawa's number in, and within seconds she picked up;

"Hala ib 7abeebtii!" she said

"You won't believe what just happened." I said

"Ha? Shfeech? What the fuck happened now?!" She said, "Sar shay 9a7?! Embayin min 9outich! Spill!" She yelled

"Gally athlif" I smiled

"La la, you're kidding 9a7?" she said in shock too

"Nope. I'm being serious. Do I SOUND like I'm kidding?!" I yelled

"And what did you say!?" she asked

"I hung up! Shbagoul ya3nii?!" I said

"MAISA! This isn't you! Min mita etkhaleen a7ed eghali6 3alaich?! You call him back and kick his fucking ass! You get that?!" She told me

"La 7abeebtii, I'm not calling back. I'm texting him. He'll hear my voice and I'll be yelling and he'll just yell back. I know him." I told her

"INZAIN SAWAY SHAY!" She said

"Ya zift! Basawii shay! Akalmich ba3dain, let me handle this." I told her

"You leave him, you fucking leave him. You deserve someone so much better!" I yelled

"Oh I know that, I'm going to make me him want me like fuck. You just wait and see. Ma6la3 bint oboy etha makhalayta yit7asef." I said

"Good! Now that's my girl!" She clapped

"Yeah, okay. Akalmich ba3dain." I said and hung up.

I started to walk back to Layal with so much determination in me.

"Emshay il baranda" I told her

I guess she saw the anger and determination in my eyes that she feared to say a word. She just walked behind me, and followed me like a stray puppy to the baranda.

I sat down, and pulled out my phone.

"I'm going to show you." I said in between my teeth.

I started writing the message to Na9er;

"Thelfay ha? Okay Na9er. This is it, if you can't respect me, then don't call me, and don't message me anymore. I'm not here for you to be disrespectful to me. Ga3adt wela mishayt sar 3indy nafs elshay, bel a5a9 3ugb ma giltly thelfay. So, good luck, and goodbye;)"

and I clicked send.

I waited for it to send completely. When it did, I sat back, raised my legs to rest on the railings of the balcony, and breathed in the fresh salty breeze..

A second later, my phone starts vibrating, I look down.. I think you know who it is..

Na9er :)

I showed it to Layal, then counted to 5..

1..

2..

3..

4..

5..

Deep breathe..

"Aloo." I said annoyed

"Are you serious about your message?" He asked me

"Yes. I'm serious. You called, ma shifta. I call you back tgouly rou7ay thilfay?! Wain ga3deen Na9er! Mani a9ghar 3yalik!" I yelled, I could feel the rage shaking him so hard, "oo ana kila ilee adig! It's like I'M running after you o inta matabii! That's it! Manii daga oo arkith warak oo akhrat'ha tgoulii hal 7achii!" I kept yelling

He was speechless..

Right then, my other phone started ringing and it was my mother.

"I have to go Na9er. When you know what you want, you know where to find me." I stated, and hung up.

My mother was just asking where we were, and asked us to go inside since it was getting kind of chilly.

We walked to my chalet, and collapsed on the sofa..

"Ufff!" Layal said

"Ta3abtay ha?" I smiled

"Eeeh! Wayid!" She laughed

"Mmm.. I want food" I said

"Me too!" She jumped

"Emshay, lets get il kakaw min il ma6ba5" I told her

We walked to the kitchen and got a hold of the food we bought, then went back and watched Charmed on MBC 4.

For 10 minutes, Na9er wasn't present in my mind.. :)

When I checked my phone again, oh wow.. A missed call.. :)

I showed it to Layal and laughed.

"Mu giltlich, he'll come running back?" I told her, then called him

"You called?" I asked

"Tawich tgouleen kila you call and I don't pick up, or I'm too busy to pick up o I only message you! Now who's not picking up!?" He yelled

"It was on silent oo shayla il vibrate! This is once! Inta kil mara!" I retorded

"You know what, don't call me." He said

"You don't want me to call you?!" I asked him almost bursting into laughter

"No, don't call me." he said again

"Okay, I won't call you." I laughed

"Okay. Bye." He said

"BYE." I said and hung up.

Okay. The dude had serious issues. Right?

3nad 3alaih, I turned off the phone :) Oh yes I did. He doesn't want me to call him, I will not fucking call him. I will not lose myself for him - even though I sorta kinda already did - but that's not what we're talking about right now.

I packed up my stuff, and that night, I'm heading home.

I'm gnna be strong.

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The drive home, was the complete opposite of the drive to chalet.

This drive, it was depressing songs. This time, it was anger that raged inside of me towards Na9er. How could he say something like that to me?! Ana al7een shsawait?! Out of the blue he tells me thelfay?! Inta ethlif!

I came home and made my way to my room, I flung my bag on my bed, and went to the bathroom to have a relaxing shower.. I need my alone time..

Half an hour of sitting under hot water, hugging my knees to my chest, just letting the water wash over me and take over my senses.. My eyes closed, and breathing so calmly..

My thoughts went back to the time when boys were nothing to us.. When boys to us girls were icky, and ugly. When we used to run from them just because we thought they had cooties. And now, almost every teenage girls' life revolves around a boy. And that boy, well, he'll probably just cause her heartbreak, pain, and give her a bunch of sleepless nights of her drowning her pillow with tears.

Why do we girls need boys? We don't need them, we're independent.. We're living in a period of time where women can hold their own! Then why ladies do we need men?! WHY!?

I keep asking myself that..

See, we'll never know the answer, but it's the simple law of attraction.. A man is always attracted to a woman, as a woman shall always be attracted to a man..

For the rest of the week, I've avoided calling him, messaging him, or even talking to him on MSN.

I'm standing my ground you jerk. Like I said, I'll make him regret it.

My girls stood by me, whenever I had this urge to call him, I'd call one of them up. And right then, they'd kill my urge to call him.

A week went by..

Saturday was the day he told me not to call him..

Sunday.. Nothing...

Monday.. Still nothing...

Tuesday.. I'm still waiting...

Wednesday.. I'm still waiting... I'm losing hope....

Thursday... I've lost hope... He's not gonna call me... I know it...

It was October 30th, 2009.

I don't know how I still remember the date. I think it was just that significant part of my life..

Me and 3anoud had a day planned to go shop for Halloween costumes. But unfortunately she couldn't make it. So I called up another friend and drove around the bright streets of Kuwait City trying to get a costume..

Before I headed out..

Something on the table started to shake..

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Two posts in one! I know Part 18 isn't long, but I'll make it up to you all!:*

I love you all so much! I hope you liked it!:*

Stupid In Love. Part 16.

2010-06-08T18:50:00.010+03:00

My loves! I'm sorry for taking so long, but I've been really busy! I'm sorry my darlings! I'll try to finish the story before I leave for the summer, because I won't be posting anything while I'm away:( I'm sorry.

But here's part 16 :) I hope you enjoy it!

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Well the distance.. I'll tell you what it did to us.. This is what happened..

After I went home and packed up, I left with my parents.. And the whole ride there, I had my iPod on, and my headphones in my ear, listening to music that reminded me of him, songs that had me smile at the thought of his lips on mine..

It was like I was in one of those romantic movies, we'd be driving, I'd be staring out the window, quietly singing along to the songs, smiling, with the boy I'm in love with running around in my head.. If it was real, and he really was running around, I think he'd be knocked out cold right now! But that doesn't matter.. What matters is that I had him, he was mine.. No one could take him away, not as long as I'm alive, not as long as we BOTH chose to be with each other.

The minute we got to the chalet, I smiled, and it was like a weight was lifted off my heart.. Like you were being cramped under a boulder, where you can't breathe or move, but someone just came and took it off of your chest, that's how it was like with me, the chalet, and the beach.. It was my escape, whenever I needed a place to run to, I'd hold it all in, just to that special moment where I know I'd be there and everything will be erased, where I can think of a solution to all my worries..

I went up to my room and dropped all my stuff, I took my iPhone, my headphones, my phone, and I left;

"Mama ana 6al3a atmasha" I yelled to my mother and I left

I walked around, looked at the captivating moonlight shine across over the big dark gulf.. I wondered, how would it be like if I had Na9er with me? What would he do? Would he hold me in his arms, and kiss me? Would he stare at me? What would he do? But I guess that's something I won't know, right?

I sent Na9er a message, telling him I got there, ta7amadlii bil salama, and told me that he's with friends, he'll talk to me later hopefully. I told him it was fine, and we'll talk soon.. I was too drained to stay up honestly, so I walked around a bit, listening to music that soothed and fed my soul, fed it with every nutrient it needed, love, hope, faith, strength, everything! You name it, it fed me! An hour or so after walking around, I called it a night.. I sent him a message telling him I was drained, and I'm going to bed, he told me it was okay, and he bid his goodnight and I left..

Tomorrow's a new day.. Another chance to life, to either make it better, or, well.. Dwell on the bad shit you did in the past.. But hey, make it better, because nothing is worth it!;)

I woke up the next morning to my cousin shaking me..

"Maisa? Mayous! Goumay!" Layal said

"Hmm? Sh9ayir?!" I woke up

"Mu 9ayir shay, bes yallah goumay!" she giggled

"Mmmzain!" I said and got out of my bed, "ni6ray! ya wailich enmishaytay!" I told her

"Hehe okay" she said

I went to the bathroom and got cleaned up, I brushed my teeth, washed my face and got dressed. I wore my GAP hoodie with tights and my UGG boots, I pulled my hair into a bun, and that was it for me.

"Yallah?" I asked

"Yallah!" She smiled

"Tarayagtay?" I asked her

"La2, yait aga3dich 3ashan enrou7 nitrayag.. Etrou7een Cafe 26? We'll get something from there.." She said

"Yeah, sure, ma3indii mani3, bes khan nis2el awal.." I told her

"Ee, si2lay, omii matgoul shay madamii wiyach" she said

and it was true, murt 3amii matgoul shay as long as Layal was with me, see I'm the goody-too-shoes in the family, so I was trusted really well..

I asked my mother and she said we can go; so we headed for breakfast at a cafe.. how exciting with us ashkalna chithii!;p

While we ate, I told her about Na9er.. I told her everything.. She beamed, she saw in him everything I saw.. She liked him.. She was like my little sister, since she had no sisters, she'd run to me when something happened. Sure, sometimes we get too wrapped up in our own worlds, but once we reconnect, we're inseparable..

We headed back to the chalet and Na9er sent me a message;

"Gm;*" he said

"Morning honey;*" I replied

"I feel like driving.." I looked at Layal with a mischief in my eyes

"DRIVE!" She grinned

the point of the driving is to go crazy together

I ran to my mother and nagged her to let me drive my fathers car, and since my father was out of the country oo tabii il fakka minii, she said okay;p

We got into the car, blasted the stereo, and drove around dancing and singing; Layal kept taking pictures of me, every little move, she snapped it.

As I drove out of the gate, Layal's brother swung the gate forward, the next thing I knew..

I hear a screech..

a HUGE scratch on the car.. :)

Oh wow.. My father shall have my head!

I backed up, and drove to my mother. I told her what happened and she was as worried and scared of my father's reaction as I was!

I ran up the stairs to my room with Layal and locked the door. We sat on my bed and stared at each other, still in shock.. Did that really happen? We laughed out, but the kind that went haha then you stop, still reminiscing.

"Call Na9er! Tell him what happened, maybe he can help!" She told me

"Uhm, okay. I won't call, I'll send him a message." I told her

"Just do something!" She ushered

"Okay!" I said as I punched the four letter word - SHIT - into a new composed message.

"What?" was the reply I got

I told him what happened, and he called me laughing; can you believe it?! He's laughing at me.

"Na9er! Instead of laughing, help me?!" I yelled

"Shasawii?!" He laughed

"Madrii! Bes shagoul 7eg uboy when he asks!" I told him

"You can't say anything, you busted his car" I could feel him smile on the other side of the phone.

"Okay." I pouted, "I'll talk to you later okay?" I told him

"Okay" he told me

Me and Layal decided to take a walk.. We started on the beach, then made our way up to the garden. I was still scared of my fathers reaction.. So I was constantly in contact with him via messages...

I tucked my phone in my pocket, and when I pulled it back out, I found a missed call from him.

I wondered why he called.. So I called him back..

"Hala, you called?" I asked him

"No." He said, in a way that sounded as if he was annoyed

What the.....? I asked myself

"Um, I found a missed call from you.." I said calmly

"I didn't call." He said firmly.

"Um, okay then. I'll go, uh, bye..?" I said in a way that showed that I was dumbfounded

What he said next, still shocks me to this very day..

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There you go! I hope you liked it :)

I love you all, enjoy your summer and stay safe!:*

Your feedback is appreciated! :)

Love,

-Q;*

Stupid In Love. Part 15.

2010-05-20T21:42:00.002+03:00

Part 15! :) Just for my loves! I hope you like it!:* It's not long, but it's the best I can do!

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As I stood there, I felt something.. Something firm and strong make its way up.. Made its way up the side of my body, up my shirt.. It was Na9er’s hand..

He had his lips on mine, an arm around my waist, and a hand moving up my shirt. You know when you watch a movie? And it gets to a steamy part? And then the guy has his arm around her and his hand going up her shirt feeling every curve of her body and all that? Yeah.. That was it..

I quickly pulled away and moved his hand away from my body. I looked at him and he smiled, the naughty boy smile, the one that’s like I want you, that kind of smile..

Oh my God, that boy drove me wild in every way; from the way he talked, to the way he used to make fun of me. But because it was the reckless, carefree kind of thing that you only read in books, it was all good. I never thought I’d meet a guy like him, not once in my life; all I knew is what I read from blogs, and story books, and I was hoping one day I’d look around and I’ll find that story book love, and then, Na9er came along.. And I thought I found the story I want to live.

When he smiled, I looked at him, then slowly pulled my lips into a familiar smile.. One that had a story of a girl wanting to show the one she wants what he’d want and need, but wouldn’t.. A smile that teased him..

I know I know, I’m not an innocent angel. Sometimes teasing him makes me get what I want.

I giggled to myself, and he smiled at my giggles.

“Rikbay” he told me

“Arkab wain?” I asked acting stupid

“Elsayara, ba3ad wain?” he told me

“I’m not getting in” I said firmly

“ya3nii tabeen a7ed yishoufna chithii? 3adii?” he teased

“Ma7ed ra7 yishoufna, we’re kinda in a deserted place” I said

“Kaifich” he said and I smiled

I stood there and looked at him..

I finally got him..

Na9er is now mine..

All the tears I cried, everything I went through..

It was all worth it..

The boy is mine.

The BOY is MINE.

After the couple minutes of quiet, he broke the ice in a silly way, thinking of it now, I can’t help but laugh

“You can’t kiss” he laughed

I kicked him.

Yeah, I KICKED him!

“Akeed I can’t kiss! I don’t know how! Forgot you’re my first?!” I retorted

“Hahaha, yeah” he laughed

I said something that sounded so stupid!

“bes I know how to kiss!” I yelled

He laughed

“You kicked me, and told me you know how to kiss, now you kiss me, I kissed you, this time you kiss me, lets see what you can do” he teased

“I wont”

“You kicked me! You said you know how! I wanna see!” he snickered

“Mabii” I blushed

He laughed and just looked at me

He looked at me in a way I don’t know how to describe, something like, if could devour me, taste every flavor of my lips, my neck, and feel every curve of my body, he’d do so..

So I took a step back..

We were quiet for a bit..

He looked at the clock in his car..

“It’s getting late.. I think I should go, and you should go in, I don’t want your mother to call you wintay mu emsawya shay,” he ridiculed

“Yeah,” I laughed, “I better go..” I said

even though every emotion in me wanted me to turn around, kiss him so hard and then run across the street, where he can’t come after me..

“Deeray balich” he told me

“Kaaay!” I yelled and walked away

Ay deeray balich? A car almost ran me over, because I was staring at my phone, I was calling 3anoud, calling Jawa, trying to tell them what happened.

He was probably still standing there, watching me, I felt my body heat up, my neck burned and I felt beads of sweat forming. I kept walking like nothing happened. Then, I almost tripped over my own feet. Someone hit me with something!!!!!!!

I filled them in with everything, 3anoud’s reaction was,

“Now I want to have my first kiss!” she yelled and I laughed in response

The next hour or so was a hard core work out, feeling great, I was happy, I was smiling like a maniac, I was listening to up beat songs, I was over the moon..

It was pure, no strings attached joy.

I went home, packed up, and I was off to chalet.. It was time to see how the distance would do us both..

The distance..

Well..

It..

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There you go!;) Part 15:) Not as long as part 14, but I’m really busy with school and everything:(

I’ll try posting a new post soon just for you guys!:*

I love you!

And good luck to you all with your finals! I know it’s hectic, but we’re almost done with this year baby!;)

Keep doing what you do best! Again, I love you!

-Q;*

Hello x

2010-05-11T05:55:00.002+03:00

Good morning my loves x

This isn't a story post, but actually it's a little consultation to you.
I've been looking at the Wordpress blogs and I really like them, but I've been wondering, should I switch to Wordpress or stay on Blogspot.

Blogspot will ALWAYS be my start, the reason you all know and read my stories, it's like my first agent, but maybe it's time for a change..

So, I was wondering, if I switch to Wordpress, would you still read? Or should I stay here?

I have another idea, but I'm not sure about it yet though;p Which is to post in both, on Blogspot, and on Wordpress. There won't be any change in the stories, they'll be exactly the same, but they sure will look different.

The ones on Wordpress might have pictures and those things while the ones on Blogspot might not.

So you decide what you would like, whatever fits your needs and desires best, is perfect with me. :)

Have a good day my angels! And don't forget, you can find me on here, on my email (queenofmyhood@hotmail.com), or on Twitter.

I hope you're all doing well;

Allah e7afithkum x

I love you all xx

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 14.

2010-05-06T22:49:00.000+03:00

Hii there my loves x
I just want to take this time and thank each and every one of you for your ongoing support. You all have made me so much stronger, and have given me the freedom of speech I didn’t find anywhere else. You have supported me from the very beginning, and I thank you for that. You don’t know how much each and every one of you means to me.
I’m here for you all whenever I’m needed, just like you’ve been there for me from the start, that’s the only way I can pay you all back, actually, that’s not enough, but I don’t know what else I can do to pay you back. But I just hope that you can come to me when you need help with something, when you need a piece of advice, when you need a shoulder to cry on, I’ll be here. I’ll have my hand out for you, I’ll be your big sister if you need me, I’ll be your best friend if that’s what you need. I’ll be exactly what you need.
Again, thank you for the ongoing support.
I love each and every one of you.
Xx

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Now you’ve all known what happened in the first two meetings with Na9er, you’ve seen how I cried, you’ve seen how I smiled, how I giggled, and you’ve felt every thing inside of me. You’ve been me in my last posts. Now you’ll be me again.. It’s time for you to jump into my shoes another time..
Remember when Na9er told me I was lying, when I didn’t tell him I “talk” to guys and all of that? Yeah, he brought it up again, we got into some fight and he wouldn’t talk to me.
I remember calling up a friend and crying so hard, I cried like there was no tomorrow.
This friend is not one I mentioned before, she’s not even Kuwaiti, she’s Emarati, so lets just call her Flana.
“Flanaaa! I can’t do this! I can’t live like this! He knows I want him, he knows I love him! Then why all this torture?! Why does he want to keep hurting me?!” I cried into the phone
“Mimi 7ayatii, rou7ii, heday heday, eta9lee 3alaih o0 ramseeh, estafsiree emna, 3urfii why’s he acting this way?!” she consoled me
“Flana, he doesn’t want to get hurt! He’s scared I’ll hurt him!” I yelled
I remember I was sitting in a corner in my room crying, yelling into the phone when my breathing was shallow like someone was suffocating me, I was trembling so much I couldn’t hold the phone correctly.
“Sawee ilee giltlich etsaweena! I’m gonna hang up oo intee ra7 tita9lain 3alaih witramseena, tell him you want to see him, you need to talk, insist on it. Don’t step down, keep telling him you need to see him elain yiwafi8!” She instructed me
“*sniff sniff* okay, inshallah” I told her
“Yallah, wipe those tears and call him, you’re strong, I know you. Yallah 7abeebtii, nirmis ba3dain” is what she told me as I sensed a smile creep on her face
“Inshallah, and flana, thank you..” I said
“Don’t thank me, I’m your big sister” she kissed me through the phone
I hung up and got up to wash my face, it was time to calm down and get my strength back.
I was never the one to let the guy control me, I would control him, he would go crazy in attempting to control me, but soon enough, he’d leave, broken, and I’d be standing tall.
I knew calling him wouldn’t work because he’s giving me the silent treatment, so I sent him a text message.
“Hii, I need to see you.”
“No.” is what he replied
I got mad then, I got pissed, it was like fire was coming out of my ears.
“Shno no?!” I replied
“No, you don’t need to see me.”
“How the f*ck do you know?! I NEED to see you!” I told him
“I don’t want to see you.”
“Well I want to see you.” I retorted
“Say it over the phone.” He said
“No, it won’t work on the phone, I need to see you. Tomorrow.” I demanded
“I’m sick, I can’t tomorrow.” He told me
“Okay, when you’re feeling better then.”
“Okay” he told me
YES! I won! Woah! That felt good! And when I see good, like REALLY good! The smile was plastered on my face, I felt strong, once again, I’ve done it. :)
That was Monday..
Wednesday..
“Hii, are you feeling better?” I asked
“Hey, yeah I am:)” he told me
“El7imdella..” I replied
“Eeh, el7imdella:)”
2 minutes later..
“So when do you want to see me?” He asked
“Tomorrow?” I told him
“Sure, when and where?” He asked me
“I’ll tell you tomorrow” I told him
“Okay, but before school ends please”
“5ala9, wela ehimik” I comforted him

Thursday..
It was October 21st, 2009.
My day was fully planned..
School, send Na9er the location, meet him, then chalet. That was how it was going to be.
I woke up in the morning making sure my hair looked good, I made sure to take my Victoria’s Secret lip gloss with me to school, and my most complementing sweats. So after I picked my sweats, I pulled out a plain white v-neck shirt that I got from H&M. I folded them and rammed them into my bag hurriedly.
“Shit! Mascara!” I whispered in a loud voice.
I opened my drawer and pulled out my mascara, blush and eye lash curler. Yeah yeah, I know, why all that for a guy? Because if anything bad happened, I wanted to walk away looking like a goddess. Sure, not in sweats and all, but at least, I’d want him to know that he lost something. Something valuable!
I took my bag and ran down the stairs; picked up my coffee and off to school I went.
It was around 1:30 when I sent Na9er the location and time.
“Hii, so are we on for today?” I asked him
“Yup, wein?” he asked
“Um, my gym?” I asked
“Sure, ay gym?” He asked me
“Flex Family. Bneid il Gar, back parking” I told him
“Akhaf a7ed yishoufna” He said
“No don’t worry, maku a7ed, it’s abandoned, well other for lihnoud ilee feeha;p” I sent him
“Loool ok:p What time?”
“At around 3?” I asked
“Will be there:)”
“See ya” was the last thing I sent him
I started talking to 3anoud about it, and she insisted on helping me get ready since we had the last period together and I needed to get ready and knock the boy off his feet!
Bell rang, and me and 3anoud RAAAAAN to the bathroom, dodging every human being we ran into.
I locked myself in a bathroom stall and started to undress
“Maisa! Yallah!” She laughed
“Okay okay! I’m coming!” I giggled
I got out and ran to where 3anoud was;
“Eyelash curler!” I yelled as she handed it to me
You know when you look at those movies and they say something and they quickly hand over that very thing they asked for? It was like that; and before long I was done.
I ran down and when I almost got to my car.. I realized..

I forgot my school back upstairs.. In the THIRD floor bathroom.
How smart Maisa! Guess what I did? I ran to my car, threw in my bad with all my clothes, then ran back up to get my school bag.. By the time I got down stairs, I was out of breath, with beads of sweat forming at the back of my neck and the side of my face. MU WAGTAAA!! I turned on the air conditioning and got it to the highest temperature it could go to.
“Wainich?” He sent me a message
I looked at my phone; it was already past 3. SHITT!! Na9er is VERY accurate with time. When he says he’ll be there at a certain time, he’ll be there.
“Sorry! Kanii I’m 5 minutes away, i5tii ta2a5erat!:/” I lied; it was a white lie. Don’t murder me!:/
“Okay, I’m there”
2 minutes later, my driver dropped me off with my sister, and he left, I remember standing there, I looked around and didn’t see him at all.. I called him..
One ring..
Two rings..
“I see you” was the hello I got
“Yuma wainik?” I asked, “I don’t see you..”
“Come across the street, ana ayeech..” he said
“Okay, ana 3ind the silver corolla” I told him
“Okay”
and we hung up
I walked up to the silver corolla, and I saw him walk up to me..
The way he looked had me in a daze..
He coyly looked around, but not in the way that irritated me, the one that made me want to jump on him,
“Hii” he said
“Hii” I replied as I wrapped my arms around me, YES, I wrapped my arms around MYSELF. That wasn’t a typo, I did do that, I guess it’s what you do when you stand up in defense of yourself? I don’t know, all I know is that I did that.
“So..” He said as he looked at me, note that he didn’t look me in the eye
“6ali3nii” I told him
“Ga3id a6al3ich” he said
“No! Look me in the eye!” I demanded
“Magdar..” He said
“Why?!” I laughed
“Madrii..” He said as he lowered his head
I giggled when he lowered his head and said, “okay”
“So what do you want to talk about?” he asked me
“Na9er, tikfa goulii, ana ga9art ib 7agik?! Did I lie to you?! Did you tell me to do something that I didn’t?! You wanted all the guys on my msn to be deleted, sawait ilee tabeeh, facebook, you saw it, kilihum ma3ay in school or are my cousins! You and A7med are the only ones that aren’t from school or related to me! Tell me! Ana ga9art ib 7agik?!” I yelled
“La2..” He said
“3ayal tell me! Tell me why you’ve been hurting me so much! For F*cks sake! Look at me now! I’m shaking just standing right in front of you! You have that much of a hold on me!” I kept yelling
He was quiet, imnazil rasa..
Suddenly, my phone rings.
SHIT! Wagta?! I look.. My mother..
“Digeega, omii” I said and he motioned for me to take it
I picked up,
“Aloo?” I said
“Hala mama”
“Ana bil gym”
“I thought I did! Imbella, I told you!” I said
“Oh, yimken nisait? I’ll be done soon inshallah”
“I stopped running 3ashan I pick up when you called” I told her
“Inshallah, 5ala9 3ayal bes arid a5ali9 shughlii” I told my mom and hung up.
“Shfeeha?” he asked
“La nothing, she just asked me why I didn’t tell her I’m coming to the gym, bes I did..” I told him
“Oh..” He said
We were quiet for about 5 minutes, so I turned around and leaned on the car, I slowly settled my phones on the car and just looked at my hands.
“Maisa?” He said
“Hmm?” I asked as I turned around slightly
“Do you wanna be with me?” He asked me
“You know the answer to that..” I smiled
“No, I want to hear it from you”
“Na9er, I’ve said it a million times, oo inta adra bil jawab..” I said again
“La2, abii asma3’ha minich..” He smiled
“Yes.. I do..” I said
And that smile that makes me melt in my place formed, that smile that makes my knees buckle and my bones turn to mush, that was the smile I saw.. :)

I started giggling and I turned around and leaned against the car one more time.. He came closer and leaned on the car next to me, I turned around and looked up at him and smiled, he smiled down at me.. I was quiet for maybe a minute or so when I felt something make it’s way around my arm..
Na9er slid his hand under my arm and slowly intertwined our fingers as we leaned against the car, that intertwinement made the butterflies in my stomach stir, I felt like they were going to come up out of my stomach and out of my mouth. He squeezed my hand and I rubbed my thumb on the side of his palm and thumb when he squeezed my hand.
I looked up and a shy smile formed
“If you want me to kiss you, come closer” he teased
“You think I want you to kiss me?!” I laughed, “nope I don’t” I smiled
“I know you do” he smiled at me
I threw my head back and laughed
“Come with me” he pulled me
“Wain ray7een?”I said and I stiffened my legs
“My car” he said
“No, manii ray7a to your car” I stated
“ta3alay! I’m not going to do anything!”
“Mabiiiii!” I said
“Ta3alay!” He insisted
He came closer and wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me,
“Nooo!” I said
“Wallah manii emsawii shay!” he said as he took a hold on my jacket
“Ahh! Zain zain!” I said as I walked at his pace, “you don’t have to pull me you know!” I said
“Ba5ith jakaitich” he told me
“Heeeey! La2! That’s my favorite jacket! I’ll give you something ba3dain” I said as I yanked my jacket out of his hand
“Ya3nii shino?! You’ll give me an earring?! Wila what?!” He joked
“La I’ll give you a hoodie” I laughed
“Haha not my size!”
“I have oversized hoodies you know!” I retorted
“Okay okay” he said
by then we were leaning against his car, an Escalade.
I was leaning against him, I would look up and I’d see his face.. In height, I’d be up to Na9er’s nose.. Perfect height..
He lifted my chin with his index finger..
The next thing I knew…

His lips were on mine..

And slowly after that, I felt his tongue pierce my lips and make way into my mouth..

I was in too much shock to move a muscle..
That kiss ended up turning into a make out session..
He kept trying to part my legs with his knees, and I would push his knees away.
He moved to the side of his car and opened the door to the backseat, he tried to make me get in but I didn’t. I wouldn’t dare get into his car, I mean I know Na9er, I know what he’s capable of, but he wouldn’t hurt me, but even though, I won’t get into his car just incase someone was looking..
The kissing went on, of course he was doing all the work since I was inexperienced! That’s when I felt something..

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I hope you liked it! I made it long! Just to show you how much you all mean to me! xx
Goodnight my loves, and have a splendid weekend! :)
Please comment, and give me feedback:)
I love you xx

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 13.

2010-04-28T20:29:00.000+03:00

Okay okay! I can’t stay away for too long!;p So here’s part 13, I’ll try to make it longer.. but no guarantees.. :(

So here we go!:)

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Like I said, when I gave up and started to watch my movie, my phone vibrated.. It was Na9er *melts*

“;**” said the message

“Hehe hii;*” I replied

“You looked nice;*” He told me

I started feeling all tingly, and giggly when I read that,

“Hehe 3ashanik;)” I told him

“;*******” I got back from him

As we kept watching the movie, it started getting very sad, and all three of us started crying, looking at each other, laughing at how we all looked, and cry again

“Thank God I saw you gabil this part” I sent him

“Haha leish?:p” He sent me

“We’re crying so much min the movie:$” I replied

“hahaha girls:p” He replied

As the movie came to an end, I paid attention to the movie other than my phone, and when we got out, I replied to him, saying that sure, we might be girls and we cry, but we have feeling o ina nir7am o en7is, unlike guys, and he laughed it off. He didn’t take it as an insult. That’s how it was with me and Na9er, cool, sweet, and everything I ever wanted…

We left the movie theater, and he called me

“7ubiiii!” He yelled

“Hehe hela” I replied giggling

“Wainich?” he asked me

“Tawna 6al3een min the movie theater.. Inta wainik?” I asked him

“Starbucks” he said

“Ohhh ma6ala3taw?” I asked him

“La2, ga3deen, ta3alay?” He told me

“We were heading that way anyway, hehe, I’ll see you in a bit” I told him

“5ala9 okay, can’t wait honey” he told me

Oh my Lord. Remembering him saying those words to me makes every strand of hair on my body stand, and every nerve in my body tingle.

We got to Starbucks and I saw him sitting in the middle of the café with 5alid. The way he smiled when he saw me, the way he looked around to see if some dude was following me, he really cared for me.. He really wanted me to be his.. He just never took the risk.. Not yet anyway..

We stood in line, when he saw we were safe, no guys behind us, and we were okay, he left. He sent me a message saying he left in case someone saw us upstairs he doesn’t want to give them the benefit of the doubt that we were meeting up, and he’d call me as soon as he gets in the car.

2 minutes later, he calls. I picked up.

We talked, and talked.. Laughed, and laughed..

“Jawa 3indich?” He asked

Remembering it makes my blood boil.

“Jawa, Na9er yabii ekalmich” I handed her the phone.

She pushed it back to me, and shook her head.

“Mabii!” she mouthed

Na9er insisted, so I told her to talk to him and get it over with.

They talked, ihya kalimta ib nafsiya.. When I got my phone back, he said he’ll text me, but we’ll talk later on the phone. We hung up.

“Shgal?” I asked Jawa

“He said that today was our one year anniversary of knowing each other..” She told me

I wanted to claw her face, my best friend or not, when I fall in love, I love, and I love hard.

We kept sending messages back and forth to each other – me and Na9er that is.

When I got home, he sent me a message saying that I had a “nice butt”. And I replied with “I know;) I’ve been told, you ain’t the first;)”. Then.. The next message I got had me jumping up and down.

“Hehe, I wanted to kiss you..”

“Why didn’t you kiss me 3ayal?!” I asked him

“Looool! There were people!:p”

“I don’t care! Next time you kiss me!(a)” I said

“Looool! Oki;p” He told me

“Hehe;$”

“I couldn’t look in your eyes..” was next…

“Hahaha!:p Laish ya3nii? Es7irouk?:p” I was making fun of him! I wasn’t being serious!

“Eeh, kind of..” he replied

“Ehehe;)” I answered

“;*”

After that, I left my phone inside my room, while me Jawa and 3anoud went outside and giggled like maniacs on my balcony.

Meeting numero tres is yet to come.. That one, I remember the freaking date of it, and every single detail of it. Let’s see what shall be your reaction once it comes around the corner;)

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Part 13! :) Tell me what you think my loves xx

Goodnight xx

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 12.

2010-04-08T03:45:00.002+03:00

Stupid In Love part 12 :)

This is dedicated to the one person that has been with me through hell. Sometimes I wonder where I would be without her standing by my side through the hectic times of my life. And in this point of my life, she’s the only one I can trust with everything in me. Thank you baby girl:*

Here goes;)

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So, now you all know the first time I saw him. It was a couple days before that, or a week before that first meeting, that I slowly started getting feelings for Na9er.

I wasn’t allowed to fall for him. Okay, saying I wasn’t allowed is kind of harsh. I didn’t want to, well because he was my best friends’ ex. It’s not in the right place to do that. Put yourself in my place, or in her place for that matter. He was her boyfriend, she tells you some stuff he used to tell her or do to her, you start to either hate him, or like him. When he’s your man, and then he becomes someone else’s, you’ll start getting jealous about it all, he used to say something to you, now he says it someone else, he used to hold you and kiss you, now he does it to someone else. If he was yours, how would it feel? I know I would go crazy! I know that for a fact!

Also this was all planned out, it wasn’t meant for me to fall for him. I’ll probably be describing myself as a “call girl” in this next paragraph. Has anyone of you watched the series “The Secret Diary of a Call Girl”? Well she’s a call girl who’s writing a book about her life, and she has to go about her normal life doing what she does best and write it in a book, but when her editor tells her there should be another book, she has to start experimenting more. She’s not meant to fall for any of her clients. Her best friend fell for a client and is going to marry him, she was against it at first, but I guess it’s always the same, as long as she’s happy, you’ll be happy, right? Lets just say, Na9er was kind of a project of mine. Not a client. Like an experiment, I wanted to decode his thought and stuff, I ended up being like her best friend, falling for her client, but I fell for my experiment. Yes, I just described myself as a call girl. Way to go Q! :p

Okay, back to the second time I saw him, Jawa, 3anoud, and Me we’re going to “My Sister’s Keeper”, and he asked if he could see me.. I looked at them and told them what he said, Jawa’s reaction was the complete opposite of what I thought she’d say:/

“EEH EEH!! LET HIM COME!!!!!!” She yelled

“Um, okay.” I said and looked at 3anoud

“I don’t know. It’s up to the both of you” 3anoud said

“5ALEEH IYEE! GOLEELAH EEH!” Jawa said again

“Zain zain!” I told her

I texted Na9er and told him we’re on. I guess he was excited, because his texts then consisted of kisses o kalam 7ilu;p

In the car, Jawa pulled out her red lipstick and started applying it. Then, I didn’t know what it all meant, why she’s doing that, but I guess now, I know very well, and I should’ve known better then.. I asked her for her red lipstick and applied it too, I already had some thin eyeliner on, and the red lipstick went well with the contrast of my clothes.

I was wearing straight leg jeans, a blue polo shirt, and silver flats. I had my hair down and parted to the side.

Na9er wanted me to get him and 5alid two tickets so he could sit next to me in the movie, but Jawa told me not to since madrii shno 9ar wiyaha o some other dude.. Any way, I told him we were running late and couldn’t get him tickets. It wasn’t a lie! It was the honest truth! He told me that it was okay, and when he’d get there I can meet him outside the movie theater. I was okay with that, its Sharg, ya3nii who’s going to be there? Emna8ibat and hailag? I didn’t give a rats ass.

He sent me a text message telling me he’s outside, I informed Jawa and 3anoud, and I asked them if they wanted to come along with me, but they were so into the movie, they didn’t want to move.. I picked up my purplish blue Juicy jacket, took Jawa’s red lipstick, and headed to the bathroom. I admired myself in the mirror, thinking that I looked acceptable, something someone would want to stop and look at. I don’t mean that as being self centered, but as like maybe a boost of confidence before I head off. See I’m not really flattered with my body, my face, yes okay, my hair, absolutely, some of my features yes; but my body, no.. Like I described to you earlier how my body was, well yeah, I guess you understand.. Look, I have what I have been told “an amazing ass”, sure, sometimes it’s a compliment and a gift, but at other times it’s a curse! Remember this part, I’ll come back to it soon. Okay, I just went off track. So back to what I was doing; I gave myself one final look, swiped my index finger on my lips and headed to the door.

“Hii, I’m just going here for a second” I told the Indian clerk

“Okay” he said and handed me a pass

I saw him.. there he was.. poised, sitting on the railing, talking to someone on his right.. He was wearing a navy blue shirt with white shorts; 5alid was wearing a white shirt, with a white zipped up jacket, and a pair of dark washed jeans. I walked towards him and everything around me was quiet in my head all I could think was be nice, be charming, be good, 5alid is his hommie, so we have to impress him, you know what I mean? Like girls, you’d let your man meet your best friend, then you two would talk at what she thinks about him, is he lying or not, all those stuff; maybe guys do the same thing? I don’t know.. but if I have any male readers, please shed some light on us about that part!:)

“Hii” I said with a smile on my face

“Halaw” Na9er replied

“Hiiiiii!” 5alid said

“Hahah, hii there” I replied giggling

“Maisa, 5alid, 5alid, Maisa” Na9er said

“So akheeran I meet you?” I laugh

“Akheeran!” 5alid said and Na9er laughed

My God. That laugh.. You know when you have this vague memory of something and it rings in your head, but you just can’t out your finger on it, it’s fading away, you want it to stay, but you just can’t stop it? In my head right now, that’s how it is with his laugh.. I can hear it ringing in my head, yet I can’t put my finger on it to describe it to you.. All I can remember is that it used to be sooooo bubbly, and genuine! He wouldn’t laugh 3ala shay sakheef, but 3ala shay that was really funny, something worth laughing at..

“Ha Na9er, happy? 5alid is finally here! Maku missing him anymore haaa!?” I teased Na9er

“Hahaha! Shoufay shoufay! 9ar tan!” Na9er said and lifted 5alids’ sleeve to show me, “warha 5aloud” he told 5alid

“Akeed ba9eer tan, min 6 il 9ub7, lain 2 il thuher bil shams, ya3nii shbi9eer feeni?!” 5alid teased

We laughed for a bit, when all went quiet, I looked at Na9er, looked him straight in the eye.. He looked at me, then turned his face. When he turned it back at me again, he looked at me, smiled; he smiled his perfect pearly white smile, and winked. Akh that wink, those eyes, big almond shaped brown eyes rimmed with heavy dark lashes. I smiled, and wrestled my thoughts about whether I should or should not wink back at him, and in the end, winking won. To this day, I think I messed up the wink:p and when I remember that part, I tend to cover my face with my hands and laugh in hysteria at how stupid I might’ve looked.

“Okay.. So I guess I better go, ba3dain they start looking for me oo esawounlii mana7a inee ta2a5art” I rolled my eyes

“Hahaha, okay” Na9er told me

“Bye you two” I smiled

“Byyyyyyyeeee!” 5alid said

“Bye, deeray balich” Na9er told me

I turned around and walked away, a smile so big on my face, someone would know from a mile away Cupid was hanging around and struck me with his biggest love arrow, and now, I was love struck.

I returned the pass to the Indian clerk and walked in, I didn’t bother looking around, I walked in and out without as much as a single glance to who’s around. I strutted to my seat, and sat down, a smile so big the moon couldn’t shine brighter than my smile.

I looked ahead, and watched my movie, every few seconds looking down at my lap wondering if I got any text messages from him, something that would make this smile even bigger. When I gave up, and watched my movie, my phone vibrated..

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I hope you liked it! :) I know it’s been a while, and I’m sorry for that, but inshallah I’ll post more and faster than this time:)

Comment! Feedback is much appreciated!:)

Good morning Kuwait:) and I hope you have splendid Thursday! Enjoy your weekend, and love like there’s no tomorrow.

Love always;

-Q;*

Stupid In Love. Part 11.

2010-03-05T00:05:00.001+03:00

Okay my loves;* This is part 11.. Wow, ma3qula we got to Part 11 in this short period of time?! El7imdella 3ala kil 7al o0 inshallah rabii ezeeyd wibarik:)

I first want to thank you all for the on going support, and standing by me when I need it most, words can’t explain how much I love you all:**

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Like I last said, Na9er finally called me.. After the long week of crying, he called me.

I sprang to my feet and went the corner in my room when I usually sit in when I want to have my private space.

“Aloo?” I asked

“Aloo. Maisa shlounich?” He asked

“I’m okay I guess..” I told him, “and you?” I asked him

“I’m good.” He said

I mm’ed to his reply, and waited for him to say something.

“So, is there anything you want to say?” he asked

This boy knows how to get the cat outta the bag:)

“Yes” I said

“Okay, what..” He said, and it didn’t even sound like a question! :/

“Na9er, I’m sorry I told you that, I thought you meant as in by phone bes! Ana shidareenii?!” I told him, “MSN and Facebook you know AKEED I’m going to have guys!” I said

“Why didn’t you tell me 3ayal?! I was honest with you and told you I talk to girls!” But he didn’t.. Because I didn’t ask him.. Coming for the fact that Na9er is sort of known for his never ending list of girls, I didn’t think I had to ask.. I knew the answer in the back of my mind I guess.

I guess half way through that, I started crying.. He could hear my breathing getting heavier, I was sniffling, I was wiping my tears as they ran down my cheek and my tongue occasionally snuck away and licked my tears.. I felt the salty tears come down, and I wiped them away. I didn’t want him to listen to me crying..

“Are you crying?” he asked me. I guess he was in shock?

“Yeah, what do you expect?” I told him

“Madrii” he said, “5ala9, haday.. Calm down and call me or text me” he told me

“Okay” I said in between sniffles.

I hung up, and went about doing what I had to get done. I calmed down and finished whatever I had to finish and I sent him a text message.

I don’t remember what I said at this very moment, but one thing led to another, and then another fight occured over the very same reason.

Il walad mayit 5ouf ina I’m going to hurt him in some freaky way! And he’s the one that’s known for being a complete jerk and an ass! Sorry for the language, but it’s just to show how bad he was.

See, I believe that people can change, Jawa on the other hand, doesn’t. She doesn’t believe that someone that was such an asshole can turn into someone different after being hurt the same way he hurt people. Na9er did. Everything she told me about him, as how much of a jerk he was, he wasn’t. 7a6nii bi3youna, he made me feel like I don’t need any one else in the whole wide world, I kept telling her that, she would say it’s all a fucked up act.

We’re all scared of getting hurt, who isn’t?! I guess after how badly he got hurt, he slowly changed.. I won’t say how he got hurt, well because if he suddenly reads what I’m telling you all, I don’t know what’ll happen.. So let’s just keep it like this:)

Any way. I told him I wanted to see him. I saw him twice before this time.

The first time:

I was supposed to see him with friends, I’d tell my mom bni6la3, and then when we do, nin7ash to somewhere where I can be alone with him.

Guess what. My so called “friends” ditched me. I had to go and make some lame excuse to my – lets just say chaperone:) – and it was all set. I’m seeing Na9er! :D

“Maisa, when you know if you’re going for sure, call me, ga3deenii, ana banam..” he told me

“okay, bes tig3ad!” I told him

“I will, if I don’t, keep calling” he ordered me

“Inshallah, night” I told him

“Night” he said and he went off to La La land..

Il walad ma ga3ed. I kept calling my whole ride to the movie theater. Texting him, calling, calling, calling. I finally gave up. There’s no point itha madrii how many times I called o ma ga3ad:/

I got my tickets, and popcorn and was on my way in when he called me.

“I’m sorrrrrry!!” he said

“La 3adii” I told him

“Wallah asif 7abeebtii! Wallah wallah!” He told me

La7tha la7tha. Min mita gam esameenii 7abeebta? I was in utter shock. You know when you like someone, and he calls you something affectionate, you get butterflies, and your in a daze of flying sparks. That happened. And I had the goofiest smile on my face.

“Na9er, wallah it’s okay..” I said again, “Are you coming?” I asked him

“Whens the movie?” he asked

“Umm, in like, uh, it started” I giggled

“Walain. Yallah ana yayich! I’ll be there in 15 minutes 7ubii” he said

“Mu lazim if you can’t..” I told him

“La, I can. I want.” He told me

“Okay..”

“Are you alone?” He asked me

“Thaba6t nafsii, don’t worry, just come if you wanna come. Bes none of the girls ma3ay..” I told him

“Okay, ayeech brou7ii 3ayal” he said

“Okay, kaifik..” I told him

“Bes ou9al, adizlich message, okay?” he said

“Okay, bes a5af maku service..” I said

He asked where I was sitting and I told him.

To my luck, AKU SERVICE INSIDE! :D

I texted him to inform him there was service, he told me he was on his way..

I remember how I saw him come up the stairs and sit next to me and say the first hello I heard in person. My heard pounded. It went a million beats per second. I smelled him for the first time. I wish I knew what his perfume was, but to this day, I don’t.. I loved how he smelled. The smell of smoke and perfume combined..

Even though Na9er was only 16, he was a heavy smoker. Smoking made his tough days better, wila chan he would go crazy.. I never tried to stop him la2na itha he got cranky o mada5en, ana akilha..

That was the first time I saw him.. And it’s still more vivid than the second time..

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Part 11:)

I hope you liked it, I’ll tell you about the second time I saw him in the next post:)

Inshallah I’ll try to make it more vivid, but as I’ve been writing at night, they’re bad posts;p I’m sorry(a)

I love you all! :*

Yours truly,

-Q;*

Stupid In Love. Part 10.

2010-02-27T13:27:00.002+03:00

Hii my loves, I’m writing this at 1:30am, not my usual writing time, and my mind isn’t set in the right moment.. I’m writing this to keep you all involved in my life.

I’m sorry that I have neglected you lately, I’m sorry I haven’t been replying to your comments, or any of those things; but my life has been spiraling downwards instead of being a stairway to heaven. Things are ranging from family problems like fight with my mother, to stress of school which is causing me to break down every once in a while.. I hope you understand and can stand by me while I try to fix things and get them back in order. I’ll be continuing and posting parts as much as I can, but if I don’t post for a while, and leave you all hanging, please understand that it isn’t my choice, that things have just gone out of hand at that point..

Any way, here’s part 10:)

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Like I last said, Na9er was jealous. Yes, my picture made him jealous.

See, my picture was of me in a tank top, A7med liked it, he liked it A LOT, stating that he liked my cleavage and that he had a thing for “big boobs”, and being Na9er’s cousin, and practically inseparable before that summer, he knows him pretty damn well, if you know what I mean..

“What’s your problem?!” I asked Na9er

“Nothing!” he typed

“Mu ma3qoula nothing! Wtf is your problem?! Seriously!” I was infuriated! Who was he to be throwing fits at stuff he didn’t even have a say in?!

“This is my problem!” he said

“What is?!” I asked, “stop speaking in codes and just come out and say it!”

“Stop putting provocative pictures of you as your display pictures!” he told me

“Winta shaku?!” I told him

“3ashan kil il shabab ishoufouna?! That’s why you’re putting them as your dp! I know!” he told me

“Shaku shabab?!” I told him

“Your ex! He won’t see?!” He asked me

“La2, he won’t see! La2na the only way I talk to him is when my friend invites him into a convo!” I yelled

“Eeeeee 9a7!” he told me

“You want to get on my email ba3ed to check?!” I told him

“Yes, as a matter of fact, I do.” I read

What the.. Who the hell is he to say he wants to get on?! I just said that as a way to show him I have nothing to hide, not to literally allow him to get on my email and see whom I talk to and what not, my own mother doesn’t do that!!

“Fine! Here’s my password *$&%()#&%” I gave it to him

“Bes inta shaku who I talk to?! You’re acting like you’re my fucking boyfriend when all you are to me is my friend! Shilee 7arak about who I talk to?!” I asked, yeah, I got the nerve to ask him that, can you believe it?!

“You’re right..” was what he replied to my statement

“No, get on, I have nothing to hide!” I yelled

“La 5ala9 mabii” he told me

“Okay.” I said

that was the last thing we told each other on MSN that night..

I talked to my friends, I talked to his cousin, it was all good.. I got off and went to bed without as much as saying “Goodbye and good night” to him, just poof! Offline:)

Later on, another fight occurred, honestly, I don’t remember what, but if my memory serves me right, about that same ex..

Na9er accused me of lying, saying that I told him that I only talk to him and his cousin, which is true when it comes to phone! Come on, I’m in a mixed school! I have facebook, I have MSN with my classmates and previous classmates on it! Inshallah mu nawii amsa7 all the guys that were like brother to me 3ashan siwad 3youna?!

You wanna know what happened..?

I cried, I cried for a week, I cried everyday when I got home after school.. I’d lock myself in my bathroom, turn on the shower, sit under the shower head, hugging my knees and let the water rush down on top of me. My tears would blend in with the hot water and so I didn’t feel them coming down. I cried until my breaths were like 2 seconds apart from each other..

I kept sending him messages, apologizing, saying he had a point, saying that I thought he meant on the phone, and not in general.. He ignored.. or he’d say okay..

Until at one point, he finally called..

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How many of you readers has witnessed love, or has fallen in love? Felt it? Lusted for it? Craved for it from your crush? Craved it from anyone at all, including your own mother or father.. To those of you who haven’t, do you think you know love? Honestly, I think I have fallen in love, but to this day, I don’t know if it’s what you call love, or just attention..

They say love is an intense feeling of deep affection, that’s the dictionary meaning anyway.. But what’s the true meaning of love? I’ve heard it’s when you feel butterflies, when everything around you feels like a dream when you’re with them, when their voice makes you smile, when, when, you have no words to explain what you’re feeling.. That’s what I’ve heard, that’s what I felt with Na9er.. Yet after many failed attempts, and many, many heartbreaks later, I realized, I don’t want to fall in love, not until I know I can spend the rest of my God forsaken life with that person, to start a family, to make everything okay, once and for all..

Sometimes love doesn’t always work out.. I know that for a fact, as someone I know married the one they loved then, and now is getting a divorce, even when their parents didn’t approve of them being together, they fought to be together, and now that they were together, being together was hard, they don’t want it anymore, and so, the big piles of divorce papers, and dividing everything has started, lets just thank the lord that no kids are involved in this..

Okay, I think I went off track.. Just answer my question if you may.. What is love to YOU?

Part 10! :)

I hope you liked it!:) I know I sort of when off track at the last part, and it isn’t a long post, but hey, it’s late, the sand man has finally gotten to his job and is making me sleepy..

Please don’t hesitate to contact me, in anyway possible, either via twitter, email, or even on here!:) I promise I’ll try to get back to you all as soon as I can, if I don’t, please understand and be patient with me..

I love you all to bits, you’re the only ones that are keeping me going at this very moment;*

Again, I love you;*

Until next time;

Stay safe my loves;*

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 9.

2010-02-22T21:25:00.009+03:00

Hii my loves!

I'm sorry, I know I promised a Valentines post but I got swamped. I hate it. I hate how stuff pull me away for you. :(

Any way, I will continue:)

Maybe a short post though..

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See, with Na9er everything was good, we talked like friends, it was cool, it was fun, it was harmless.. But little by little, I started to fall for him.. I know, Maisa, focus. This was supposed to be an experiment. Nothing more. No lovey dovey. NOTHING. Just an experiment, to see if he would do the same things he did to Jawa to me..

"Maisa, can I ask you something?" he asked me over the phone

"Sure, ask away" I told him

"t7acheen guys?" he asked

"La2, bes you oo your cousin.." I told him

"chathaba" he told me

"wallah!" I told him

"ma a9adgich bes okay" he said

"Mimi, do you like me?" He asked me

"Shno? La2 shaku" I said, I was terrified, every inch of my body was tingly and going numb

"3ayal laish il kalam il 7ilo o the flirting o all that?" He asked in a mischievous way

"I do that a lot, without wanting to do that" I told him

"Ahaa" he said

Then it was quiet for a minute or so, I heard the music in his car, I heard his breath, I heard everything.. Now, when I remember that moment, I feel like crying, then I didn't know everything would change like this, I wish it didn't.. I really wish that..

"By the way, when I start liking a girl, I start to slowly back away.." he told me

"Uhmm, okayy.." I told him

"Mimi, ana 3ind my cousin now, I'll message you" he told me

"5ala9 okay 3ala ra7tik" I told him

I got off my sofa, and 5 minutes later I got a text message..

"Please, don't call me anymore.. I'm sorry, take care;**"

I looked at the message in awe. What the hell? We were just laughing and talking like nothing was wrong!

I got on ebuddy from my phone.

A7MED.

He's online.

"Halaw, Na9er 3indik?" I asked

"Hala o0 ghala! Ee 3indii, laish?" he asked

"Shsalfita?! Tawa 3adii isoulif o0 the next minute this?! Tell him! Tell him that yes I did like him! I had this wee bit of feelings for him but not anymore!" I punched

Ouch. I felt the strings of my heart being cut off by a key. You know how hard it is to cut strings with a key? How long it takes, and how hard you have to pull at it, that's what happened..

A couple minutes after that, my phone started to vibrate, I looked at the caller ID and it was Na9er..

"Aloo?" I said

"Aloo" he said

"Haa, shfeek?" I asked

"Intay ilee shfeech" he told me

"Mafeenii shay, inta ilee feek shay" I said

"I told you, I walk away before I fall too deep.." he trailed off, "I don't want to get hurt.."

"Al7een who got hurt?! Me or you?! ME! I didn't hurt you! You hurt me!" I yelled

"I know, but how do I know you won't hurt me?" he asked me

"Because I'm not one to hurt someone!" I yelled

"Okay.." he said

I think I struck a nerve, because we were okay after that..

Two days after that..

Remember that ex I told you about? The not kuwaiti one? Yeah, he popped up again:) Perfect isn't it?! He kept begging me to take him back, he scares me sometimes.. I know, what's he gonna do?! But I don't know, he gives me the creeps..

I told Na9er.. I know, stupid, but I did.. I needed reassurance that nothing will happen, but it caused more trouble than good..

"Shbisawii ya3nii?!" He texted

"Madrii! I'm scared of him! He creeps me out!" I said

"He can't do a thing, malich shi8el.." he said

"Okay.." was all I could muster

I was bored, my mom was out, so I decided to put on some make up and take pictures, shi8el banat 3adii;p

I went to her room, and started messing around with her make up; I liked how I looked, ALOT. I started taking pictures, and this particular one I loved.. I went on MSN and I used it as my dp..

The dude, esta5af. I am not kidding you. At first we were talking 3adii, then, AFTER using that picture as my dp, he went ballistic:/

He started being a jerk.

He was jealous.

At that time, I didn't get it.. I really didn't.. Later on only did I found out that he was mad for me.. Well at that time..

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There you go, sorry for the delay;*

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 8.

2010-02-12T13:48:00.003+03:00

Part 8! Enjoy;)

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The next 15 minutes were all about that crab, basically running around after him/her, trying to get a picture of Mr. Long eyes:p but little did we know.. The real hysterics is yet to come later that night..

We headed back to my shalaih, panting from running, and laughing at how each of us looked. We went up the steps and quickly ran to my room as the shalaih was ice cold.

“Heater! Heater!” I screamed as I ran into my room

I clicked the button on my air conditioning unit and changed it to heater.

“Okay, aku three bathrooms, I'll use my parent's, and one of you can use mine, withanya can use the guest bedroom. Who wants here, o0 who wants there?” I asked them

“Mu muhim! Lets shower bes!” Jawa said

“Okay, nagaw!” I said

“Lets shower in your bathroom taking turns..” Jawa said

“Okay, 3ala ra7atkum, mno first?” I asked, “ana a6awil..” I said sticking my tongue out

“Me too!” Jawa said and raised her hands in defeat.

“I'll go first ya3nii?” Basma said

“Kaifich..” We said

More contemplating and talking about who goes first, and we ended up all cramming ourselves into my shower – we were fully clothed with our bathing suits – taking turns on who uses the shower head first.

“Waaaaaaaaai3! Sha3rii kila ramil!” I screamed

Jawa laughed at my expression of disgust.

“Ee, ni6ray! Al7een bikoun ib sha3rich ba3ed!!!!” I yelled

“Waaaaai3! Ka feeeeee!!!” Jawa yelled

“Allah ma yirtha ya bgaraaa!” I retorted

Basma was the first to finish, she left the bathroom with a towel rapped around her bathing suit fitted body, and walked into my bed room to change.

Me and Jawa on the other hand, well we spent maybe up to another 20 to 30 minutes in the shower, washing out the tiny little grains of sand in our heads.

“3a6eenii il body soap please..” Jawa said

“Here, o0 smell it, it smells amazing! I got it yesterday lemn ri7t Il Kout wiya mama..” I said

“Allaaaaah! It smells amazing!” She yelled

“I know 9a7?!” I said

“Yeaaaah!” She squeezed the purple creamy shower gel onto her palms and started spreading it on her body, in between her bathing suit and body, and on her bare body parts.

“Hand it over please..” I said

“Here” Jawa said handing it over

I squeezed some onto my palm and she went,

“Mayouuuuus! Waiiii3!”

“Shfeech?!” I said confused

“Aku sand in there..” She said looking at me, wanting me to understand without saying the word

“In where?” I said again

“In makutiiiiiii!!!” She said and laughed

“KAAAAAK!!! Umbay, inshallah ana maku!” I said

a minute later, I started laughing

“Hem anaaaaa!” I laughed

Me and Jawa started laughing in unison as we each tried to clean it out. Apparently, il ga3da ib wis6 il ba7ar, o0 playing with the sand did that. Those little sand grains snuck in our shorts and bikinis and rested in the only place they could find. Our butts. :)

We made sure we were clean of sand infesting body parts and left the bathroom laughing. I pulled out my pink Calvin Klein panties, and white La Sanza bra.

“Digeega, barou7 albis my undies bil 7amam o0 arid” I said smiling

“Okay” Smiled jawa

I went into the bathroom, and wore my underwear, I rolled on some deodorant, sprayed on some perfume, flipped my hair and gave it a shake, and went out.

“Okay, I don't care if you guys see me in my underwear, so deal with it.” I smiled

“Haw, Mayso 3adii, we go through everything together, ana 3adii!” Jawa said

“Me too, I don't care” laughed Basma

I got out my yellow Juicy Couture sweats, and white Polo t-shirt, and got dressed.

“Maisa, do you have extra sweats? All my clothes ilee I got are kesh5a.. Kila nas 3indina, fa I didn't get anything casual..” Said Basma

“Me and Jawa are the same size, gadich?” I asked

“Ooooh, no” she said, “5ala9, 3adii..”

“Are you sure? You can try it on..” I told her

“La 5ala9, 3adii..” Basma said

“Okay, 3ala ra7tich honey..” I told her

We each got dressed and went out, passing by the kitchen for some juice before heading out. I grabbed some banana milk, while Jawa got some mango juice. Basma on the other hand, got just water.

“Na9errrrrrrrr!!” I yelled. Ironically, my little brothers' name is Na9er. Nice isn't it? Yeah yeah, it's a common name. Whatever.

Il muhim, I called him and asked him for the Rhino key.

“Ma3a Jassim” He told me

“Il mifta7 wiya Jassoum?” I asked

“Ee, digay 3alaih, ohwa bara bil mal3ab wiya il shabab china..” He said

“Ee, okay.” I told him

We started walking towards the mal3ab, and ma wa3aina ila inshouf shabab yil3iboun kura, o0 buggiat all around. I looked at Jawa and she wiggled her eyebrows.

“Siktay!” I stuck my tongue out, “These are probably my brothers' friends” I told her

“Akhhhh, 7asafa” she pouted.

“Jassimmmmm!” I yelled

Jassim, wild 3amii, o0 he's a little boy, so no worries here. :)

“Haaa?!” I heard him yell back

“Ta3al please” I said

and he came jogging towards me

“Haaa, shfeech?” he asked

“Abii mifta7 il Rhino please..” I said

“Ni6ray” he told me, “Zayouuuud! Yeeb mifta7 il rhino!” He called out to Zaid ithaher, o0 Zaid kuber Na9er o5oy, his sister is one of my good friends.

“Hach!” he handed me the key and ran off.

“Okaaaaay, thank you” I said sarcastically.

“YEEEAAAH!!!” I said and ran to the drivers side of the Rhino, Jawa to the passenger, and obviously, Basma jumped in the back.

We drove like maniacs for a bit, then Na9er texted me..

“Hii(: Can I call you?” it read.

“Heyy! Sure I guess, but I'm with Jawa..” I replied

“3adii, ba3day 3anha shway;)” he replied

“Mmm, okay;p” I replied

“He wants to call.. galii aba3id 3anich, bes I'll be right next to you” I winked to Jawa.

“Good!” Jawa winked back

“Yalla, call..” I texted him 3 minutes later.

We talked and talked.. We just laughed, and talked about random stuff, honestly now, I don't remember what we talked about, but I remember this significant part that made Jawa want to strangle him.

“Jawa tadrii inich t7acheenii?” he asked

“Nope, bes I'm planning on telling her tonight..” I told him

“La2, don't tell her!” He said

Haw, shfeeh mayabeenii agoulaha? I asked myself..

“Why not? She's my best friend, o0 I tell her everything..” I told him

“Ee, she didn't tell you about us..” He said, but little did he know that she did..

“Okay, she didn't, bes I can't keep this from her, maybe she doesn't want us to talk?” I told him

“Don't tell her.. I know she's going to be pissed, a3arif Jawa 3adil” he said

In my head I said, “7abeebii, mat3arif shay, lounik t3arif chan you would know this was all planned out..”

“Mmmkayyy..” Was all I said.

“Mayouuus! Sakray il phone o0 ta3alay!” Jawa yelled

“Na9er, I'm sorry, I gotta go, Jawa's calling me, she's on her way over here..” I told him

“Oh, okay, deeray balich 3ala nafsich” he told me

“Will do! You too!” I told him and hung up.

I ran to Jawa and told her what he said

“7maaaaaaaar!!!! He know's me?! Fuck himmmm!! He doesn't know me at all! Tell him you told me! Tell him I knew all along!!” She yelled, “Wallah la adig 3alaih al7een wagoul inee a3arif kil shayyy!!” She was pissed..

“Jawooo! La2!! The whole plan will just turn into one big problem!!!” I told her, “5aleeh! I'll say I told you LATER! NOT now!” I told her

“Okay okay..” She calmed down

We walked back and forth at the length of the shalaih before we decided to get my dog and take him for a walk

“Hii 7abeebiii!” I called out to him and his tail started wagging

“Woiii! Eshawig!” Jawa said

“Hahaha, he's big 9a7?” I laughed

“Uff!” Jawa said

“Yala 7ayatii, ta3al” I told him as I unhooked his leash from the nail in the ground.

I started walking him, and the shifts started.. Me, Jawa, then Basma, then I take him back for the night.

Right now, in this very moment, sitting here and writing this.. I wonder, why did I even want to talk to Na9er then? And now, I realize, it was the attention I was getting from him then, I was something not known to him, something he probably wanted.. Kil mamnou3 mar3'oub;) So I was something mamnou3 to him, something he couldn't get.. And so, he was giving all the attention I wanted, and that pulled me in.. Unfortunately, we can never turn back time and stop what we did before, we can only learn and grow from it..

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There you go.. ;)

Tell me what you think, and like I said, inshallah a Valentines post;)

PS: I'm now on Twitter! Follow me! http://twitter.com/queenofmyhoodx

I love you all!!!!

-Q

Hello! :)

2010-02-11T08:40:00.003+03:00

Hi my loves! Shlounkum?! I know it's been a while since I posted.. but inshallah I'll post soon..
I've been swamped, and going through a lot so I couldn't really post or write as my muse and my inspiration disappeared.. My writing was becoming stale, and so I guess the hiatus helped..?
Again, Twitter, it's getting big and I'm honestly thinking of making an account.. That is IF you guys follow (well the ones with Twitter's anyway!)

Valentines is coming up! :D What's your plans?! Anyone already have their Valentines?!;)

I wanna surprise my mommy, but I think the dozen roses with one false rose isn't really an idea? Should I? Or Shouldn't I? Since it's been used alot, it might be un-original..
Also! If any of you guys know a good flourist, PLEASE send me their name and number! You can either comment it on here, or you can email me at:
queenofmyhood@hotmail.com
I'm in need of a flourist my mom doesn't know 3ashan she doesn't know what I have planned!;)
So please, it would mean alot to me! And INSHALLAH, on Valentines, I'll post a Valentines post..

So yes, two or possible three things.. :p
1. Short hiatus I went on.
2. Valentines ideas.
3. A good flourist! (PLEASE, it'd mean A LOT to me and I honestly need it..)
4. Inshallah a Valentines post;)

Okay, 4 things. Bes you get the idea:p Haha(a)

I love you all, and I pray you're all in good health and are doing well!

Forever, with love;
-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 6 & 7.

2010-01-08T13:23:00.006+03:00

As promised! Two posts in one;)

Hope you enjoy! &I'm sorry for the delay! School is back in session:/

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The blood curling scream that left me deaf was Jawa's.. She screamed because that little bit of sunblock I had in my hand, I slabbered it on her face! :) Yep! I did! ;D

"Ya 7maraaaaaaaaaa!!!" She screamed

I laughed at her reaction and ran, as I ran away I caught a glimpse of something Red in the distance, I stopped turned my head to see a guy standing at the top of a staircase, my cousin's diwaniya's staircase.. 3aziz.. Yup.. I knew it was him, how do I know even though I never met him? Here's how..

"Mimi, he hurt his leg, o0 mo rathii yanzil! Mo rathii irou7 il mustashfa!" Jawa told me

"Ya mama.. Haday.. I think he'll know if it's bad or not.. Reelich wila reela!?" I laughed

"Bes Mimiiiiiiii! Lazem yirou7!" She pleaded

"Mu lazim.. Haday.." I calmed her down.

She stopped opening the subject again 'til the next day..

So back to what happened..

I saw him and ran back to Jawa..

"6al3ay mno hnak!" I said shocked

"Oh shit!" She said

"Ayabaaaaaaaaa!! Someone wants you!" I said and winked

"Shut up!" She laughed and this time she slathered sunblock on me!

"Ya bgaaraaaaaaaa!!!" I screamed

"Yatlich 3ala ghafla! Hahaha!" She laughed

Okay okay.. She got me.. but that wasn't the end of it.. The sunblock fight went on for the next 5 to 10 minutes. Yeah, 3aziz was watching.. Fa yama shaf 9ra5 o0 6ag o0 thi7ik.. Hey, we're girls! And girls just wanna have fun! ;)

After laughing at what we were doing, and how silly we acted, we started off for a destination where Jawa can fill me in on what I missed yesterday or the day before.

"Yala inrou7 nisba7?" I asked

"Yala, pool wila ba7ar? Jawa asked us

"Kaifkum" Basma said

"Intaw kaifkum, I can do both any day bes you two shno taboun?" I asked

"Ba7ar" Jawa smiled

See Jawa tmout 3al ba7ar, like me, if anything ever happens, the beach is the first place we'd want to go to, well probably after each other that is..

We walked down the stairs, singing our song; our song is Beautiful by Akon, so hand in hand we went, down the stairs.. We got down the last step and I felt the cold wet sand slowly sneak in between my toes; I looked down and watched my feet sink in lower into the sand.

The three of us slowly walked into the sea, the salty waves crashing against our legs. I was looking down watching where I'm going but I guess some stupid rock snuck in between glances and I let out a scream.

"Ahhhhhh!!" I screamed

"Ahhh!" Jawa screamed terrified of my scream

"5ara! a77 reeliiii!" I screamed and lifted my leg to look at it

"3ama b3ainich! 5ara3teeniiii!" She yelled

"Hahahah!" I laughed

We kept moving forward when a stupid crab decided to give us both a heart attack..

It came out from under a blanket of sane, it's two claws snapping at us, with the 6 eyes looking at us and running off between our legs.

"Ya mamaaaaaaa!!" Jawa screamed and jumped on me

I litterally carried her, while Basma ran out of the sea. Ithaher il 9adma 9argi3at'ha:p

Me and Jawa started laughing at our reaction.. She whispered something in my ear..

"I need to tell you about Bader and Jassim.." She said

"Ee, okay.. Lets find a place.." I told her, "Ako mukan fathii hnak, no rocks just sand," I pointed, "inrou7?" I asked

"Yalla.." She said and we got out of this part of the sea to walk to the other..

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Part 7.

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We got to our destination, but Basma was alone on the shore, 5afat I guess.. Me and Jawa sat down and she started pouring her heart out..

See, she recently realized she loved a guy.. Jassim.. He's in Uni, and studying in Ba7rain, irou7 wirid 3al likwait, bes fee shay mu 7ilo bil walad.. When he wants Jawa, he'll go to her, when he doesn't wella china she exists.. Bader on the other hand.. He's another story.. Bes 5an 5ali9 with Jassim awel..

Jassim min a good family, a9eel, tikana, and the reason he started talking to Jawa is well.. Because ilee galaha ina mayabii zawaj o0 ohwa may3arif il bint, wella i7ibha, wella shay.. So that was his reason..

Bader now.. My kwaitii.. Family problems.. no money, la 9alat, la dirasa, la shay.. Mahma 7awilat maku mustaqbal.. See Jawa min a big high class family, so you can see the difference.. She loves both, but she can't handle Jassim's mood swings.. Bader and Jawa are practically best friends.. So you see the pull..

"7ayatii intay.. Jassim aku future.. Bader maku.. Don't get yourself into something you know you'll come out broken from.. Bes I just wanna see you happy, so saway ilee iray7ich, o0 I'm backing you up 100%" I told her

"thank you," She hugged me, "Shasawii bidounich!? I love you Mimi" she said

"I'll always be here, mani ray7a mukan, and hey that's what friends are for!" I threw my hands up in the air

We sat in the middle of the big blue gulf.. Just joking around for the next 10 minutes, then we got out and headed back to the shore.

"LETS STRIP!" I screamed outta the blue, yeah I'm like that:p Very hyper o0 maynouna:p

"Fahraa! Wrabii fahra!!!" Jawa screamed

"Intay sh7arich?!" I stuck my tongue out

"Kaaaak!" She exploded into fits if laughter

"Ta3alaw bawadeekum mukan kila hotties" I winked

"Yala yala mishaina!" Jawa got up

We walked down the shore to a shalaih that had hotties for as long as the eye could see.. Madrii laish but it makes me feel like I'm reading Cosmopolitan's Hot Men Of The Year article! YA MAMA! ;)

"Intay mu hayna!? It3arfeen it9eedeeem!" Jawa winked

"A7im a7im, a3jibich" I winked

"Abii abiiiii!!" Jawa whispered

"Shh! Haha! 5anrid gabil la they start looking for us!" I told Jawa

"Ee a7sen.." Basma said

As we walked back, a funny looking crab ran ahead of us

"KAAAK!! Shoufay 3younah!! Bahaha!" Jawa pointed as she cried of hysteria

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I hope you liked it!

I'll try posting soon!

Exceed 6 comments, two posts;)

I love you!!!!!!

-Q

My loves!

2010-01-02T18:57:00.001+03:00

I'm back in K-Town! :D

I'm so glad to be back! It was a relief to get away min 7ash town:p Bes now I'm back;) Inshallah I'll be writing:) You guys exceeded the 5 comments, and so I'll post two posts in one;) Shraykum?!

But I need to know for twitter, I got 3 in's! 2 more &I'll get a twitter account!

Come on readers, vote vote vote! ;p

I love you all! &Man it's good to be back! :D

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 5.

2009-12-23T12:27:00.003+03:00

Okay okay. I had the time to write, and I actually felt for writing since a while now.. So here you go.. Stupid In Love part 5;)

Hope you like. :)

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"Maisa?" I heard a voice behind me say

At that very second, I clicked the round button at the bottom of my iPhone, slid the lock, punched in my code and hung up all under a minute, possibly under 30 seconds! The lyrics to Silly Boy once again gradually grew louder. And I turned around,

"Na3am?" I said in what was a voice full of innocence once heard, but it was actually filled with terror!

"Mno t7acheen?" My mother asked

"Ma7ed.." I said acting confused

"3ayal ma3a mno ga3da tith7ikeen? Ako a7ed wiyach?" She said looking around

"Haha! La2, ga3da ath7ak 3ala kalimat lighniya!" I smiled

"Aha, okay.." She said and walked away..

That was close! REAL close!

I unlocked the phone, and texted Na9er.

"Sorry! (a) Mom;/"

"3adii;p" Was the reply..

Ma9ar shay..

It was getting chilly and I was dead beat! So I decided to call it a night.. I got up and started walking to my shalaih, using the light from my iPhone as a guide.

I didn't realize I was smiling until I saw my reflection on the shalaih's window. I looked like I was love struck.. but I don't want to be, nor was I love struck! Or was I..?

I don't want to be in a relationship, I was loving being single! I would go out with my girls, see a hottie and know I could flirt, I can fo whatever I wanted to do with no strings attached! THAT was the life..

I climbed the steps up to my bedroom, my warm cozy room.. As I walked to my room, my mom called out,

"Mno?" She asked

"Ana mama!" I said

"Oh, okay.." She replied

I walked into my room, flicked on the lights, closed the door and looked around.. I was alone..

I peered into my closet and pulled out my towels. I walked into my bathroom and took off my clothes, throwing my dirty day old underwear into the dirty basket, and my clothes into a corner in the bathroom. I walked into the shower turned the hot water, then slowly and gradually adding and mixing the cold water with the hot until I got what I was looking for. I allowed the hot water to pour on top of me, to burn my back, and give me goosebumps that had me itching all over. I stayed that way for a few minutes then scrubbed my body down with my Olay Ribbons shower gel.

I washed my hands then texted Na9er,

"I'm going to call it a night, tabee shay?" I asked

"Salamtich, g.n;*" was his reply

"Night;*" again, was mine.

I went back into the shower , washed my body, and turned off the hot water.

When I got out of the shower, I pulled out my earring and inserted it in the slot to pull out my SIM card. I grabbed a piece of tissue and rolled the SIM card in it, ripping the excess sides of tissue paper. I walked into my room and to my Limited Edition Louis Vuitton Speedy bad; I pulled out my red snake skin MiuMiu walled and hid the SIM card in the outer zipper.. Who'll check, right?!

I hopped into my PJ's, crawled into bed and woke up with a smile the next morning. For once in a long time, I slept peacefully.. No one was breaking my heart, no deaths, no worries, just pure bliss..

Today though..

I WOULD BE SEEING JAWA!!!!!!!!!!!! My God I missed her!! I would go over to her cousins shalaih, Basma, since she's with her, I'd have lunch with them, then they'd come over for the rest of the night!

It was pretty formal but no biggie! Once we were done, they packed up and we started for my shalaih. We stopped by Sul6an for RedBull o0 5arabee6na, 3adii, ya3nii it's Shalaih! Hatha 7alata! 5arabee6 o0 3afsa 9a7?!

While in Sul6an, Jawa whispered to me..

"Mimi.. 3aziz ib shalaihkum.."

"SHNO?!" I practically screamed with eyes wide open

"SHHH!" She looked around

"7ilfay!" I laughed

"Wallah!" She giggled

"Shi6ana?!" I wiggled my eyebrows up and down

"Sure!" She wiggled hers

We paid and ran away as soon as we could, mission 3aba6 has begun!

We got to my shalaih and ran to my room to get ready, stopping by my dad kissing him and going,

"Hii baba! Bye baba!" and off to my room with Jawa and Basma

We got into our bikinis, shorts, and tank tops, then down the stairs so I can apply sunblock. Lounii kan 3ajibnii, mabii a7tirig! :p

I squeezed some into my palm and applied it onto my body, squeezed some more into my palm.. Then a blood curling scream left me deaf..

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There you go!

This time, I wrote it on paper then on to here.. Better huh?;p

Tell me shraykum!

5 comments, new post! ;)

-Q

Tears.

2009-12-23T11:21:00.005+03:00

Okay, from the title, I bet you realized feeha bachii, feeha tears.. And yes there are.. I'm sitting here, remembering a friend that was with me through a very hard time, so hard I couldn't go a day without talking to her.. Al7een, it's been a while since I talked to her, since she lives in another country, her phone has been taken away, and she's in school.. I'm dying just to hear her voice, my tears are coming down involuntarily.. I miss her laugh, her voice, and how she says stuff that makes me laugh and smile..

I miss you my sister.. I think she'll know who she is once she reads this.. I miss you, and I hope to see you soon..

-Q

Oh, and PS: I'm writing the next part of Stupid In Love. My hidden friend, thank you for being with me every step of the way DURING the period of "Stupid In Love"

Twitter?

2009-12-21T13:10:00.002+03:00

Hii my loves!

I'm wondering, if I get a twitter, would you follow? That way all you readers will get an update as soon as I post something that it's on! How about that?! :D

In or not?

I won't make an account until you tell me if you're in or out.

5 in's and I'll do so;)

I love you! :*

-Q

Hii

2009-12-19T19:02:00.003+03:00

Hii my loves. I'm sorry to say that I have this really bad writers block. I can't think or write anything. Quality rather than quantity bes I just can't write anything at all:(
To the two anonymous's, thank you for your opinion; bes intaw two min a majority, fa raykum mara7 ihiznee:) I'm glad I can put you to bed, how does it go? Noum il thalim 3ibada? I'm not sure, bes yea, noumkum means you won't hurt others:) So I'm glad I get to do that! :D

For my silent readers and my followers, I think I'm going to go on hiatus. I need the break I think, plus I'm leaving the country for a week or so. Fa it might be good for me.. I'll be sure to come back as soon as this stupid writer block is gone, but for now, I think you're going to have to reminese on my previous posts.. I'm sorry:(
Please la tiz3iloun minii, I love you:*

-Q

PS: I don't know if I'll keep writing if "Stupid In Love" or I'll start another story.. But for now, this is what's going to happen.. Again, I'm sorry:*

Followers &Readers:)

2009-12-17T15:06:00.003+03:00

Hii, shlounkum? How's everything going with all of you?!

Started winter break or not?

I know it's been a while since I posted something, but I'll be posting something soon inshallah.

I just wanted to take the time to see how you all are doing, I miss you all:*

-Q

Hii

2009-12-07T18:02:00.003+03:00

Hii my loves,

I'm sorry, I know I haven't posted for a while, bes I'm REALLY busy and I'm going through a REALLY tough time(Personal stuff)..

Currently, I can't get on a laptop much.. So I talked to my best friend which I'm sure you all know, Alvaro, and she said she'll be happy to post my posts for me.. So inshallah I'll be writing them on paper and handing them to her, bes you guys probably won't get something for like a week or two.. Exams lil2asef..

At this very moment, my mood is sooo bad! I feel like crying. It3arfoun lemn it7isoun ina kil shay min 7oulkum bi6ee7 fougkum, you can't focus on a thing at all? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling..

Another thing. The story isn't getting as much feedback as I thought it would.. Madrii, should I stop? It takes a long time for me to writing something, so if you guys don't like it.. I'll stop.. I'll summarize it in one post, end it, o0 5ala9. If you like it, the story will be going on for a while..

Fa please tell me, and make it easier for me.. Keep going or stop?

Please keep in mind, inspiration is failing me, o0 I'm feeling like I'm writing by force, o0 I hate that.. It's like I'm obliged to keep writing. I love writing for all of you, bes when I don't see that you like it, or what you want to see, I can't keep going.. Long story short, you guys feed me the inspiration to write..

Fa again,

should I keep writing or stop all at once?

I love you all! :*

I'm sorry if I don't post for a while, but shasawii.. times are tough, o0 brou7ii karha 3eeshtii al7een.. So yeah..

I love you!

-Q

Followers, &readers.

2009-11-26T16:11:00.002+03:00

Dear Followers and Readers,

If you have noticed, there's been an "anonymous" commenting saying "M A 9 K H A R A", please don't pay attention to them, as I'll be deleting all their comments. Yes, to the Anonymous, I'll be deleting your comments. Itha you're really as old as you are or anything o0 mo 5ayfeen min shay, you'd actually say what you want to say from your account. And if you think my story is "Ma9khara", why are you getting on my blog? To do what? To read more apparently.

I suggest you grow up and stop wasting my time. Thank you for your opinion. :)

Readers and Followers, I'm sorry if that person has been a bother to you, thank you for your time, and I hope you like the story:*

-Q

Stupid In Love Part 4.

2009-11-26T11:16:00.000+03:00

Okay okay! Part 4, much anticipation eyy?;p

Here you go! <3

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When I came back up to check on my phoneS, emphasis on the “s”, I found a text from A7med.

Galbii 6a7 ib 9irwalii..

“Shloun it3arfeen my cousin?” it read

oh shit oh shit! Shagoul? I asked myself, I thought of calling Jawa but then again said no, I can handle this, because well, Jawa was most likely sleeping..

“Mara he called Jawa o0 I picked up la2na her phone was with me, o0 I thought kan fee shay so I added him o0 we talk 3adii.. Why?” I replied

Allah yastir..

“La bes as2el” He replied

Ashwa 3adat 3ala 5air!

After my phone charged, sa2elt oboy itha agdar anazil il jet ski, o0 he said it was fine, since it was still summer:p

I had my fun, good thing about where our shailih is, mako a7ed.. kil ilee yamna nas san3een, so it was safe! 6ala3t il jet ski o0 ri7t atsabe7, when I got out of the shower, I locked my bedroom door and checked my “private” phone.

“979*****

Hii(:”

It read

NA9ER?! I asked, NA9ER!!!!! HE TEXTED!!!! I was sooo psyched! I started jumping around!

“Heyy(:” I texted back

Suddenly, my phone starts vibrating. I look down to find the same number calling.

Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit.

That would be the first time I’d talk to him from my phone..

Pick up or not? I asked myself, I decided not to, instead I texted him and said;

“sorry, I’m still at home, call me in 10 minutes;$”

Sent.

I quickly got dressed and went outside.

I walked until I got to barandat 3amii, I sat there o0 started listening to music from my iPhone, iPod and phone in one, PERFECT;)

I was listening to Silly Boy by Rihanna and featuring Lady GaGa when my ring tone started blasting in my ear instead of Silly Boys’ lyrics. I look down..

Na9er.

His number glowed.

And a smile crept up on my cheeks, and I touched answer.

“Aloo?” I said

“Hiii” He said, and his voice gave me butterflies, his voice rough, not as much as A7med, bes manly for his age..

“Heyy” I said

“How are you?” He asked

“Good good, you?” I answered

“Good.. 5alouuuud! Rou7 shoufa hatha! Bidish bil 3amoud!!! Hahahahahaa!!” I heard

and I started giggling to myself

“Sorry, I’m with my friends and one of them got this little motorcycle and we’re driving it around” He said

“Ahaha, it’s okay” I laughed

“Hold on hold on, hach 5aloud, I’m going to drive for a bit” He told me

“Ahahahaha! Okay” I said

“Aloo?” 5alid said

“Aloo..” I said

“Hiiiiiiiiiiiii!” He said in silly English accent

“Ahaha, hii” I said

“How are you?” He said in that same silly accent

“Ahaha, good, you?” I asked

“Zain zain il 7imdella! Mata7achain 3arabiiiii?!” He asked

“Ahaha, emballah, at7acha 3arabi” I said

“Eee zain! Ta7achay 3arabiii!” He told me

“Inzain” I laughed

I heard Na9er’s voice,

“3a6nii 5aloud” and he laughed

“Hii, sorry, ahaha” he laughed

“La 3adii” I said

I heard him saying stuff to his friends, and then he called 5alid over.

“Abeech tismi3een 5aloud wihwa yit7acha ma9rii!” He laughed

“Ahahaha! Okay” I laughed

“Tikfa 7achha ma9rii!” Na9er told 5alid

“Inzain, 3a6nii” 5alid told Na9er and took the phone from him

Il waled gam yar6in ma9rii, and all I could do was giggle and laugh!

“2oulii 7aga!” He would say and I’d burst into more laughter, and in the background Na9er was laughing too, ya rabii, his laugh..

His laugh, I wish I could remember it now, but I don’t.. I remember how it would make a smile spread on my face.. It made my darkest days brighter, now it’s like I’ll never hear ‘em again..

Na9er took the phone from 5alid and laughed,

“China ma9rii haa?!” He laughed

“Maisa?” I heard from behind me

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I know it’s not long! But it’s all I can do for now;$ I’m sorryyy! I love you!

3eedkum imbarak 7abaybii! :*

-Q

My loves<3

2009-11-24T19:20:00.003+03:00

Oh my God, you guys don't even know how happy I am! I can't believe you guys are liking this! I promise I'll post something soon! *Hint: probably tomorrow;)

I'm going through a swap of books right now, school and all that, last day of school is tomorrow, so I'll write the next part while I'm home;)

At this point, the story has no end, it'll keep going and going..

You'll know what I mean when I get to THAT part;) Hehehe;p

I love you guys SO MUCH!

AND! Thank you for getting me to 20 followers! Wow.. I never thought I'd make it! x)

I love youuuuuuuu!!!!! <3

-Q

"Maynouna.." Stupid In Love. Part 3.

2009-11-20T17:49:00.003+03:00

Part 3.

Wow, this is helping me let go even more, you guys don’t even know. It’s making moving on SO MUCH easier! Because this way, I can know what YOU guys would do if you went through what I’m going through..

Thank you all for your on going support, through maybe the toughest time of my life.

This post is dedicated to Zarh, thank you ya ba3ed 3umrii for EVERYTHING!!!!!!! Twinitii<3

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“SHNO?!” She asked

“He wanted to give me his number.” I said.

“WTF! What is wrong with that dude?!” She asked

“LOL!” I said

“Min 9ijaaa?! He just fucking met you! Mo minii wi6ireej he gives you his number!” She protested

“Don’t worrrryy! Ma 3a6aita raqmii! I said I don’t give my number out unless I trust them with my life”

“Ee, good.” She said

We started laughing and planning our next move.

Na9er and me kept talking like normal, well normal to me, I was the one that would start the convo, the dude would blow me off? Yea, that’s what he later called it, blowing me off. I NEVER NOTICED IT. Every time we would talk for a few minutes or something, he would tell me he’s going to get off to get some sleep, it was 3adii to me, since I do that too.

Things started warming up between me and him, we used to talk daily, I started to know him better, I knew when his birthday is, I knew he had sibling, and all that.

Once, I was reading a blog, I was reading Outspokenly actually;

“What are you doing?” He asked me

“Reading (a)” I told him

“Reading what?” He asked

“A blog..” I said

“Ahaa. Did you know my ex wrote a blog about me?” He told me

“ARE YOU SERIOUS?!” I asked shocked

“Loool ya” he said, amused I think

“I wanna read!” I said, I remember my how I felt then, I wanted to know how he acted, I wanted to know how he looked like, how he treated her, all those little details. I was DYING to know! And now, ironically enough, now there’s two blogs about him.. I know what mine is about, but what’s HERS?

“Looooool I forgot what it’s called” he told me

“Okay, how do you know it’s about you anyway?” I asked him

“Someone told me.” He said

“Ohh okay” I said

“Inzain, ana barou7 anam, tabeen shay?” He asked

“La2 salamtik” I told him

“Ok, gnight” he said

“Night!” I told him

and his pm changed to “Nayim;*”

I decided to get off and start studying, since I REALLY wanted to bump my GPA higher than it was last year, la2na last year AHMALT.

I switched my phone to silent, and I started on my school work. I just started my Algebra homework when my mom walked in.

“Maisa?!” She called

“Na3am?” I turned to look at her, since I was on the ground doing my homework

“Yala goumay badlay” she said

“al7een?!” I asked

“Ee, yala goumay! Bnitfa6ar ib fin6as ilyoum, yala goumay” She told me and left

“Okayyy..” I frowned

Fin6as bait yadii min 9oub omii.. o0 I LOVED going there, I’m so close with that side, my cousin is 2 years younger than me, and we’ve been through a lot together, so there is where I feel most at home, other than my place..

I wore my dara3a, and heels since my dara3a was long:/ I parted my hair to the left and I was ready to go!

I joined my family in my daddy’s car and we drove off.. For that time, Na9er never used to occupy my innocent brain, he was not even a speck in that brain.

Well not innocent, INNOCENT, I knew stuff, I had friends that are older I mean come on, manii bint i9gheera yahil ma afham! I told y’all, I’m sometimes the mama of the group!

After fi6our, I came home and finished my studies, showered, and got online, he was online but I didn’t bother talking to him. I was ADDICTED to FarmVille then, so I just kept playing, my eyes started to burn, so I got up, and decided to crash for the night..

Next day at school was a normal one, not dramatic or anything.. I just told Jawa about A7med, he was this random dude that commented on whatever I commented on Jawa’s profile on facebook, some what weird.. I told Jawa Je t’aime, and he asked me if I spoke French, and I was like yeaaaah! I do! My profile is on the top of it’s privacy, you can’t add me, look at my pictures, or even contact me in any way, I can add you and contact you. So he asked me to add him, and I was like, lol sure.

He was a flirt.. I’m a flirt too lil2asef.. Mu 3ala kaifiii! I do it without even wanting to do it! I laugh sometimes and it ends up being flirty! I talk, or say something, and they say I’m flirting! I don’t MEAN it to be that way!

I remember us being in Geography, me and Jawa were writing notes, yes yes, how 11 year old of us, but we couldn’t talk! Even when we were sitting right next to each other, we’ve got boys and big mouths all around us!

“Btw, A7med is Na9er’s cousin” she wrote

“WHAT?!” I scribbled down, “ARE YOU SERIOUS?!” I kept writing very fast

“Yup, but they don’t talk anymore, something happened.” She said

“What?!” I asked

“I’ll tell you later” She wrote

I turned and looked at her, and she mouthed later, I glared at her, and she mouthed BA3DAIN.

Grrr, I WANT to know! Patience isn’t a good trait of me.. I know I know.. Bad.

The bell rang, and I ran out of class and pulled Jawa the minute she came out,

“SPILL!” I said

“Na9er is stupid, he threw a bitchy fit over the fact that a7med didn’t invite him to his graduation, maskeen he only had a certain number to invite, o0 he had people..” She frowned

“Ola, shda3wa?” I asked and looked at her from the top of my eyes

“Yuuuuuuuup!” She said and we walked

“Yeah, look I have deen, ashoufkum ta7et.” I told them

“Yeah, okay baby” she said and we kissed each other’s cheeks

I went upstairs and dropped my back off, I went to the bathroom to fix my hair and wondered what the fuck was up with na9er?! Mu ma3qula! He’s 16! Not 6! He won’t throw a fit over that! Would he? Well I would soon find out..

3eid was coming around.. Which means, shocking people time!

Okay, I’m going to sort of explain my looks to you..

I have naturally brown curly hair, it’s pretty unique, mo 3an ina yay me, bes seriously, you’d know me in public from looking at the back of my head.. Yes, THAT unique! I have almond shaped eyes, not big, nor small, light brown eyes, a straight curvy nose, and some what full lips, and I had perfect eye brows, mo lazem a7ifhum is what people say.. Yet ana abiiiii! L

I have curves, MAJOR curves, type that make boys follow me around.. Bes I’m not skinny, I eat like a goddamn pig! Bes also I’m not fat, la2na I’m VERY athletic! Lets just say Jawa makes fun of me.. She compares Louis the XIII to me! His legs anyway:/ 7mara!

I’m pretty damn tall for a girl, almost 170:/ a6wal min oboy:p

So 3eid was coming, and I had NOTHING to wear! So shopping time with mommy! x)

I went shopping with my mama and little brother, I was psyched at how I was going to drop jaws! And Indeed I did..

Everyone tells me inee jameela o0 7ilwa and pretty and beautiful and all that, bes sometimes ma ashoufa! I really don’t! I mean come on, put yourself in my place, I had this best friend, that I won’t call ugly, bes 7imdella w’ishiker, un-attractive.. Lemn we go out together, guys follow HER, not me! They flirt with HER! Not me! Maybe her body? Since she’s skinny, bes almost no boobs, o0 mako womanly features and all that.. So see, ironically enough, the “pretty”, “7ilwa”, “jameela”, “beautiful” girl everyone see’s I don’t see.. Do you get what I mean now? So yeah.. a9lan shakait ib 3oumrii o0 I asked my mom if she saw me as pretty.. Yupp.. Insecure.

So yes, 3eid, ri7t 3ayadt o0 all that, I came home at around 6 or something and had to start packing la2na binrou7 il shalaih.. I got everything done, and went online.

“3eedik mbarak!” I told him

“ayamich sa3eeda” he replied

I didn’t have him on facebook yet.. So this is what happened next..

“Send me your pics:p” He told me

“LOL! Yeah, inshallah..” I told him

“I’m serious” He said

“Okayyyy, when you send me your pics I’ll send you mine, DEAL?! xD” I asked him

“looool okay” he said

and started sending pics

Shittt! Ay pics I send!? My pics kila ib 7afar! I broke my cam so I don’t have pics san3een ila min Photo Booth! And they’re all of me in 7afar or PJ’s!

GOT IT!!!!! I had pics of Jawa, 3anoud, and me from the weekend before or something! I looked cute, so why not?! I send him some, and he sent me some..

“That’s 5alid ilee ma3ay, he’s the friend I’m always with” he told me

“cool!” I said

Wow, his lips mal bous! I told myself

Keep in mind, I’ve NEVER had my first kiss! I was 7adiiiiiiiiii baree2a! Never did I get physical with a boy! NEVER! Flirting is as far as it would go.

I giggled to myself, why the hell was I lusting for this boy when ma3jibatnii his actions ma3ay?! :/

“Don’t show my pics to anyone!:p” I told him

“Loool don’t worry” He said

“I’m serious..” I told him

“Who the fuck am I going to show it to!?” He fumed

“I don’t know, I’m just asking you not to..” I said

“I won’t.” He said

I was on facebook and got on Jawa’s friends, take the goddamn risk and add him Maisa! I told myself, and so, I clicked add to friends..

“Well, I gtg now;(“ I said

“Okay 3ayal” he said

“I’ll talk to you soon inshallah! Later! Tc! :*” I said

“Inshallah, you too;**” he sent

I turned the laptop off and got my iPod and other stuff with me..

The night before it though, me and A7med were talking, and we were good friends.. We wanted to exchange numbers and omii itfatish:/ So I remembered I had another line! Kan 3indii 5a6 thanii!! 5a6 ahalii ma kanaw yadroun ina 5adamtii sharatliyah! YES! SCORE!!!!!

“Digeega! I got it!” I told a7med

“Ok:P” He replied

I called my nanny and asked for the other phone, I plugged the sim card into my iPhone, and I was good to go!

“Got it! ;)” I told him

“Shno?” He asked

I explained and gave him my number

“Shai6ana!” He teased

“Adrii!” I said

I was going to get my hair done and he called, his voice was 5ASHIN! Ya3nii itha a7ed 9adnii, MATARAGA3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hii, huh, ee, was sorta how it went, and then he had to go, and I did too. SAFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I can breathe.

Now back to youm il 3eid.

So I went to shalaih and Na9er wasn’t on my mind.. YET.

I liked talking to him, he was funny and all, madrii irti7tla..

Next day, I got online min mobilee, yet it was dying, we talked for a bit, and then I went;

“FUCK! My phone’s dying!”

“Oh, a7acheech ba3dain 3ayal” He said

“Call me if you need anything!” I said

“I don’t have your number;p” Is what he replied

“Oops 9a7! Here, 97******” I gave it, maynouna o0 3a6aita.

“Here’s mine, text me or something” He said

“you have mine just text me and say it’s na9er, 5ala9! I have to go it’s dyingggggg!” I punched into my phone

“Looool! Okay” he said

I charged my phone o0 I went downstairs. I left my “private” phone in my underwear drawer

When I came back up to check on my phoneS, emphasis on the “s”, I found a text from A7med.

Galbii 6a7 ib 9irwalii..

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THERE YOU GO!!! A LOOOOOOOOOOOONG PART 3!!!!! Adrii it’s been a while since I posted a long post, but I had a lot of spare time on my hands(a)

Hope you likeeeeeeeee!!

I love you all! And again, thank you for the on-going support!

-Q

PS: I think you girls are going to fall in love with Na9er later.. ;)

My Loves<3

2009-11-20T17:45:00.003+03:00

Okay! Not to torture you, but part 3 is WRITTEN! And might I say it's a long one! ;)

I just need 3 more comments and you get your 3rd post! I'll upload it on blogger, bes I won't post! Not until I get my 7th comment, the minute I do, I'll click post;)

So get commenting! :*

I love youuuuu! <3

-Q

My precious precious readers..

2009-11-19T15:01:00.003+03:00

To my precious, PRECIOUS readers..

I know it's taking a while posting new posts, but please bear with me.. Part 2, I asked for 7 comments and then I'll post a new post, well yes, I will post a new post after 7 comments, but if it takes longer, please bear with me, la2na the memories of all this hurt..

I'm over Na9er and everything, but thinking about the past opens up old wounds..

Fa as2alkum you bear with me..

I promise I'll keep posting until you get the full story, bes if it should take longer than usual, well it3arfoun laish..

a7ibkum.. Words CANNOT describe how much I love you ALL!

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 2.

2009-11-17T13:33:00.001+03:00

7abaybiiiii! Adrii I didn’t post something in a while, and I’m sorry! Bes lihait with school and all that! Bes I promise to post.

I’ve gotten a few likes! And I’m soo glad you guys like it!

I FINALLY have a title! It’s..

Stupid In Love.

Yessssss, stupid in love..

I’m going to keep telling you what happened next.. So here we go.

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“Bal 3alaichhhhhhhh!!! 3ain ma 9alat 3ala il nibiiiiiiiii!!!!” I got an IM from Jawa

What was she talking about?

I was confused.

Shsawait!?

“Ha, shfeech?” I asked

“7achaitaaa!” She said

“Eee, o0 sh9ar?! :p” I sent

“He went, ‘Jawa tara ana adrii mita il bint ma gamat it7ibnii o0 matabeenii’ blah blah blah!” She replied, “o0 ba3dain galii, ‘tell your friend that picked up I say hii’ :p wtf, shfee hatha?” She asked

“LOOOOOOL!!! Min 9ijich!?” I asked her

“Eeee! Hahahaha xp 3ainich m9eeba!” She sent

“MASAWAIT SHAY! A9lan ma kint abeeh! I was just kidding!” I replied

“LOOOOL! Well it happened. Yala plan? ;)” She asked

“LOL! Okayyy;)” I replied

and that’s when it all started..

I got off MSN and started studying, staying in contact with Jawa about our “plan”. So it went that I add him on MSN, see how things go from there, and let it progress.

The next day, me and Jawa kept talking at school, and decided that when she gets back home, she’ll check if he’s online, and then I’ll do my job.

“Haa?! Is he online?! :p” I asked

“EEE!!” she replied

“Email baby. ;)” I said

“!@#$%$#^@hotmail.com” She sent

“YES! Ahahah:p wanasaaaaaa, ba9eer shay6anaaaaa (6)” I said

“Intay dayman shai6ana!” She teased

“Shh! Let me do my job baby! ;)” I warned

I added na9er, and within seconds he accepted.

Yummaaaaaa. I told myself.

“Hii, who is this?” He IMed.

“Hii, I’m Jawa’s friend, I picked up the phone yesterday..” I said, “you can delete me if you want..” I told him.

“No, it’s okay.” He told me

“Where did you get my email?” He asked

“I got on Jawa’s email and I got your email, because you sounded like you were mad or something, china you’re disappointed I answered..” I told him

“Ahaa..” He said

We kept talking and I asked if Jawa did anything that might’ve got him mad and his reply shocked me.

“Whatever me and Jawa have going on isn’t anyone’s business.” Is what he said.

Wtf? I asked myself.

I didn’t even answer him! I was in too much shock!

I decided to get offline and start studying because I really didn’t want my mom to take my laptop away.. :/

“I gtg, I’ll talk to you later I guess, if you need anything just ask.” I said

“Okay, if you need anything call me.” He said

I laughed, I fucking laughed.

“Lol, I don’t have your number.” I said

“Ya, right.” He said

“Anyway, I don’t talk to guys on the phone unless I trust them with my life, sorry.” I said

“No it’s okay.” He said

I got off, and called Jawa;

“MARA7 IT9ADGEEEEEEEN!!!!!!” I screamed into the phone

“SHNO?!” She asked

“He wanted to give me his number.” I said.

“…”

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To be continued. I hope you liked it! I know it’s not long, bes 7adii mareetha o0 ta3bana, I just wanted to post something so I don’t leave you guys hanging:*

7 comments and I’ll post something new;)

So start commenting my loves! :*

I love you!

-Q

Stupid In Love. Part 1.

2009-11-13T10:56:00.003+03:00

My loves;*

I’m going to start my new story, I don’t have a title yet, so I’ll just improvise until I do so;p

Keep in fact, this story is based on real events. Some might shock you, some might make your heart melt, and some may just make you feel like you’re living a dream.

I’m sorry to say that some facts, or stuff said during that period of time have been blurred because of a fact you’ll know later.. ;)

That’s it for now, so let the ball start rolling..

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Hii, I’m Maisa, and I’m going to tell you my story. It caused me a hell of a lot of heartbreak.. I cried more than I have ever cried in these few months of my life. And it all started with him.

I’m going to tell you how it began..

“Fuck fuck fuckkk!!” Jawa screamed

“SHFEEEECH?!” I asked

Jawa’s my best friend, and when I mean best friend, I literally MEAN best friend, she’s the definition of a best friend. We’ve known each other for 7 years, and in those 7 years, we went through EVERYTHING together, sure there came a time where we got separated, but when we got in contact again, it was like nothing happened.. With Jawa, we went through heartbreaks together, relationships, family problems, even PMSing! It all came at the same time! I can read her mind as she can read mine, all we need is one look. That’s how close we are.

“Na9er!” She said

“Wait, Na9er? Mno hatha ba3ed?” I asked her

“I TOLD YOU ABOUT HIM!!!! HE’S THE ONE THAT’S JUST LIKE MBARAK IN CHICKEN SOUP FOR THE KUWATI SOUL!!!” She said

“Ohhhhh!! HIM?!” I asked

“YES!” She yelled

At this time, we were all standing in a circle at the school stairwell, when I say all, I mean our group, it consists, of Me, the little one of the group, yet sometimes the mama;p Jawa, the understanding one, 3anoud, the Americanized one of the group since her mom’s American, she’s basically the most westernized one, but she doesn’t date or talk to guys more than friendship kinda talking.. But, even her phone doesn’t have guys’ numbers. Loujain, the innocent one, and when I mean innocent, I literally mean INNOCENT. 3omerha ma sawat shay to break her moms trust, 3omerha ma 7achat wa7id, 3omerha ma 3a6at wa7id wayh aw 7atan 3a6ita ra8emha. Hiba, well Hiba is another case, she’s a boya, I know I know, how could you be friends with a boya o0 all that shit, bes you guys need to have a friend like that to know they’re just like us, ba3ed she’s more protective of me than my own brother! Madrii chem wa7id 3adii itkaf5a bes la2na he broke my heart! I swear it!

She handed me her phone and I looked at the name.

“Asheela?” I asked as I wiggled my eyebrows

“YES!!!” She laughed

“Are you serious?!” I asked in shock

“YES!!!!!!” She giggled

“Umm, okayyyy…” I said as I waited to get some guts to actually do so, la2na it’s been a while since I talked to a guy, a while I mean, 5 years a while. As friends sure, bes 7adha MSN, never on the phone. Well I dated this guy recently that wasn’t a Kuwaiti, and we never talked on the phone! It was Emails and MSN.. So yes, talking on the phone was still something..

1 missed call

“Sada” I laughed, “Adig?” I asked

“Kaifich” she laughed

So I called back

“Aloo?” I said, and it sounded so fucking dalou3a! I was in shock!

“Aloo?” He answered in a husky sleepy voice

“Ermm, did you call Jawa?” I asked

“Yea, mno?” He asked

“I’m her friend.. Telephonha ma3ay.. I’ll tell her that you called when I see her” I said

“Mmm, okay.” He said

“Okay, bye.” I said and hung up

I was shivering! I was soooooo nervous! That was the first time I heard his voice, and sure wouldn’t be the last..

“ahahaha! Shakla im3a9ib! Digay 3alaih lemn you feel like it!” I laughed

“Ahaha, okay!” She laughed with me and we wrapped our arms around each other’s waists.

We started going down the stairs ready to each head out to our way, still our hands were around each other’s waists.

“Shofay, itha matabeena 3a6eeniyahhh!” I joked

“I5THIII!! MABIIII!!!!!!” She said

“Intay min 9ijich?!” I asked

“EEEE!! MIN 9IJIII!!” She said

“Ahahaha!” I laughed, “Okay!” I kept on laughing

“Shofay ohwa shyabii awal shay ba3dain goleelii” I winked

“Okay” She winked back

I walked down the stairs with my girls with me, feeling invincible, nothing could go wrong, I didn’t need a man in my life, I got over that fag of a dude I was dating. Plus side of that, he wasn’t Kuwaiti, so no problems came with it. We were laughing and contemplating plans for the weekend.

I went back home, and turned on my phone, since my mother has a big no no with taking my phone to school:/

I turned it on and got on MSN.

“Bal 3alaichhhhhhhh!!! 3ain ma 9alat 3ala il nibiiiiiiiii!!!!” I got an IM from Jawa

What was she talking about?

I was confused.

Shsawait!?

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There you go(: First part! x)

I hope you liked it!

-Q

"This is just the beginning" Part 30. FINALE!

2009-11-12T10:02:00.001+03:00

HERE IT ISSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The finale! Inshallah you guys like it! I’m going to start writing my next story soon, but this is the Finale of Starbucks Fantasy – wow, this is my first complete story! And it wouldn’t be possible without all of you!!!!!!!!!! :* Thank you! And I love you ALLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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And the preperation for the rest of her life began..

The wedding dress, the 8a3a, the singers, the food, EVERYTHING. It had to be perfect, for the perfect life, for the perfect boyfriend, for the perfect future husband, and for the best future father of her children.

Finally.. The big day has come..

The girls woke up early while they allowed Jenna to sleep in. Alya, Dalal, and Jenna’s mother started their side of the preparations, Alya went and called the stylists, Dalal called the caterers, Jenna’s mother got the dress and Jenna’s jewelry, after everything was set, they woke up Jenna.

“Gomay youma” Jenna’s mother kissed her head

“Hmm, inshallah mama..” Jenna said and tussled in bed.

“Yalla youma, goumay 3ashan titjahizain..” Her mother told her

Umbaih, today’s the day.. She told herself and slowly rose with a smile on her face.

She got up and walked to her hotel room bathroom, she turned on the hot water, and gradually incorporated some cold water with it until it got to exact temperature that she wanted.

She stood with a towel around her body and her sea salts in her hand, she thought she heard his voice and spun around to find that his suitcase was on the bed.

“He was here..” She whispered, and a smile broke on her face

She turned back around, continued sprinkling her sea salts into the warm water then walked to lock her door, she found a rose on the bed with a note gracing its presence. She picked it up and walked back to her bathtub locking the door behind her.

When she was finally settled in the warm, relaxing water, she opened the note and read it to herself;

“Ilayla intay itkouneen 7alalii.. 7agii o0 magii;*

It’s just a couple more hours until I can see my soon to be wife stealing the spot lights, breaking necks, and making all the girls there jealous.

A7ibich. And tonight I’ll show you just how much;*

-7abeebich”

She smiled and smelled the little piece of paper, that scent is the scent she’ll be smelling for the rest of her life..

Time came for her to start getting ready, her make up was done, her hair was perfectly sculptured, all that was left was for her to slowly wear her dress, and to finally glam up with her gorgeous jewels.

Any other girl would be nervous, and emotionally wrecked! She wasn’t, she was happy, she was ecstatic, and she was finally going to get what she wants.. 3abdallah.

It time.

She slowly walked down the stairs and stood in front of the huge wooden doors, queue music, and she walked in.

Everything was perfect, the big white lilies, the red roses, the creamy white sofa’s, the dimmed lights.

She couldn’t look around, she had this genuine smile plastered on her face and she kept walking.

One.. Two.. Three.. Stop. One.. Two.. Three.. Stop. She kept repeating in her head.

Yala Jenna, you’re almost there, one, two, three, stop.

She got to her Kousha, Alya, Dalal, and Jenna’s mother fixed her dress, grabbed her flowers, and helped her sit down.

She waited.

Waited.

And waited.

An hour later, it was his turn.

He walked in. Her heart skipped a beat, she couldn’t breathe, all she could do was stare at him and smile. He mouthed “a7ibich” to her, and her smile got even wider.

He got closer to her, and behind him, she saw Marzoug, he smiled and nodded to her.

She stood up, and 3abdallah kissed her cheeks, and whispered something to her, it kept ringing in her head all night long,

“Forever you’ll be mine, and I’ll be yours, a7ibich.”

He stood next to her, and they greeted his friends, it was Marzoug’s turn. He kissed her cheek (since they’re related, it’s approved), and he said

“You picked the right one, bil imbarak inshallah, I’m sorry for hurting you, o0 itha 3baid sawa feech shay, bes digay 3alay, awareech shasawii feeh!” He winked and she laughed

“My Zougii,” she told him, “7mar, I missed you, bes now 5ala9, mara7 itrou7 mokan, you’ll be with us dayman” She smiled

“Akeed” he told her

He congratulated them and left with the rest of the men.

Jenna and 3abdallah sat down and looked at each other, he slid his hands into hers, and they intertwined. She turned to look at him, and she saw him smiling with his eyes shining like the brightest star in the night sky.

She squeezed his hand never wanting to let go.

This is just the beginning, the rest of my life is yet to come.. And I’m going to spend every waking minute of it with him.. She told herself. And so, her life began, his life began, THEIR life began..

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So there you go! I hope you guys liked it! Again, THANK YOU for making me capable of finishing my first story! Wallah mindounkum this wouldn’t have happened at all! :* Thank youuuuuuuu! :*

-Q

"I'm determined." Part 29

2009-11-08T18:39:00.001+03:00

2 posts in 1 day! xD

Okay, here’s part 29. And since a lot of people including my best friend says stop at 30, I’m going to stop at 30. I’ll make it smooth don’t worry;)

But;

First off, I read a comment from an Anonymous - I know I don’t reply to comments, but it doesn’t mean I don’t read ‘em! I do! - So Anonymous, first off, I didn’t mean it to be ina i3yal ACA ma9khara, awalan my cousins are in ACA. The point I had it in that way is because, I wanted it to be seem like they both went to the same school, both graduated the same year, and not once did they run into each other at any thing. And THAT was the point of it. Ana mo 8a9dii ina ohma ma9khara, it’s supposed to be a romantic thing! To me, and to other readers IT IS. Itha it’s not to you, I’m sorry honey, it was meant to be.

So, just wanted to clear that up. I’m going to keep writing, post 29 babies! :*

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They walked back to his car, but before they got in, he got a hold of her wrist.

He got a hold of it and pulled her close to him, he gently kissed her lip, then whispered in her ear,

“Jenna, I’m not going to play around with you, you drive me crazy, I want you, o0 ra7 athbitlich.. Just wait..” he kissed her cheek and walked to the drivers side of the car.

She let his words swim around her mind like little tadpoles trying to find their way out of the lake. She walked to the passenger seat and climbed in, and they headed to her house.

Ra7 yathbitlee.. What does he mean by that? She asked herself. She finally decided to let it go.

“3aboudii, shaghil il radio” She blinked

“7a6’er! ‘3alii w’il 6alab ir5eeeee9!” He winked

“Hehe, thank you baby” She said

“aaaaaah ya galbiiii!” He said and placed his hand on his heart like it actually hurt

“Salamat galbik!” She said and kissed his cheek

They got to her house and Jenna saw Marzougs’ car outside. She looked at 3abdallah with tears in her eyes.

“Imshay..” He told her, “I’m with you.” He held onto her hands.

She held onto his hand and squeezed tightly. They walked in and she let go of his hand indicating she can take care of this.

“Hey babyyyy!” Marzoug said and walked to Jenna

“wa5ir 3anii.” She said coldly

“Ha, Janouya shfeech?” He asked her

“Shfeenii?! Inta ilee feeni!” She screamed

“Ha, JENNA LAT9AR5EEN!” He yelled

“7ARAM 3ALAY O0 7ALAL 3ALAIK?!” She shot back

He walked towards her raising his hands wanting to slam her to the ground. 3abdallah ran towards them and held Marzougs hand

“MARZOUG LA2.” 3abdallah said, “Mo rijoula it6ig bint.” He said trying to act like he’s his friend.

Marzoug lowered his hand and walked away stopping on his way out.

“I should’ve known you’d hurt me and leave me again. This is the last time I’ll ever come back to you.” And with that, he left her life for good.

She looked at 3abdallah and ran to him,

“Don’t worry baby, I’m here. And I’m staying.” He kissed the crown of her head as he held her tight in his strong arms.

Jenna started to tremble with every tear that came down, and it broke his heart, it broke it so bad that he made his choice; he knew exactly what to do. And he was going to do it. No matter what people said.

Jenna fell asleep in his arms, he carried her up to her room, slowly tucked her into bed, and wrote a note for her to see as soon as she woke up;

“To my love,

You fell asleep o0 galbii ma 6awa3nii aga3dich;* I have to go for a bit, I’ll be here tomorrow morning 7abeebtii.

I promised you I’ll never leave you, and I won’t ever leave you. I’ll see you in the morning, and start cooking la2na I have something planned;)

A7ibich;*

-3abdallah

PS: You look like an Angel asleep;p ;* “

And with that, he left to get his plan done.

He drove home as fast as the traffic would let him. And when he got home he found his parents in the living room.

“yuma, yuba.” He said

“Ha yuma, shfeek?!” His mother said shocked, the boy was panting!

“Mafeenii shay, bes abee agoulikum shay..” He told them

“Goul yuba” His father urged him to go on

“Abee a56ib..” He said

“Hathee il sa3a limbarika yuma!” His mother said excited

“o0 mno sa3eedat il 7a6’?!” His father asked

“Jenna Il Flaniya” He told them

“Obouha Mbarak il Flani?” His father asked

“Eee yuba! 3arafta?!” He asked excited

“Akeed a3arfa! Ma3ay bil dawam!” He told his son

“Yuba tikfa! 7acha! Abii binta! Mabeeha itrou7 minii!!!!!!” He begged his father

“7a6’er yuba, bacher adig 3alaih o0 agoula..” His father smiled

“Mashkour! Allah i5aleeliyak!” He kissed his fathers head, “a7ibich yal ‘3alya!” He said and kissed his mothers head

He ran to his room knowing she would soon be his. He fell asleep thinking of her being his wife and a smile on his face..

“3ABDALLAHHHH!!!” His father yelled

“Hala yuba!” He said running downstairs

“Bil imbarak inshallah” His father said

“7achaita?!” He asked

“7achaita, o0 sa2el binta, o0 wafi8at..” He smiled

He ran to his father, kissed his head, ran to his mother, kissed her head, and ran out of the head with his mother screaming “Wain rayi7777?!” In the distance

He drove to Jenna’s house and rang her doorbell, she opened her door, and he scooped her up in his arms and twirled her around, both of them laughing in synchronized laughter.

He put her down and asked her,

“bit9eereen 7alaly?” He asked her

“Mhmm” She nodded

“a7ibich” he said and kissed her

“o0 ana a7ibik” she said after he pulled away

They spent the whole day together, talking, and being complete fools, Jenna never had someone that she could be herself around but her friends, and now the man she planned to spend her whole life with, is becoming her best friend..

2 months after that day, imlichaw, so now she was his. They went out every minute they could, they went to Uni together, they did everything together.

Until one day, it hit Jenna.

A7iba.. A7iba.. She thought. He was there for me through the toughtes. And now, all this time together, it only made us get closer.. He’s the one that’ll be there for me through thick and thin. I don’t want him to slip away from me, I don’t want to lose him.. Forever, he’ll be mine, and I’ll be his..

And the preperation for the rest of her life began..

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Okay! So part 29! xD

There you go! :* I’ll try writing post 30 the minute I can! A7ibkum! And tell me what you think! :*

I love youuuuuuu<3

-Q

"I'll never break your heart.." Part 28

2009-11-08T16:30:00.000+03:00

I posted a post yesterday and a post today, comment and make me happy and I'll post more:p

So, here you go! :*

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“Jenna, abii agoulich shay..” He told her

“Goul..” she said

“Tara Marzoug isn’t with his father.. “ He informed her

“Huh?” She asked confused

“Marzoug mo ma3a oboh.. Oboh ma yi7taj shay.. A9lan oboh imsafir.. Marzoug 6ali3..” He told her, keeping out one important point.

“6ali3? 3abdallah, wallah 7adii confused al7een, sh8a9dik?” Jenna asked him

“YA JENNA FIHMAY!!” 3abdallah blurted as he jumped off his truck, “MARZOUG IS FUCKING CHEATING ON YOUUUU!!!” He screamed

“Sh-sh-shno?” she asked tears stinging her eyes

“I’m sorry I blurted this out, but he’s cheating on you.. I’m telling you la2na intay you deserve someone so much better than him! Adree he’s your cousin o0 all that, bes when you guys ‘broke up’ as kids he never got over it o0 he thought kil wa7da ra7 tijra7a nafs ma jara7tee wihwa 9gheer.. Fa I guess he resorted to being a bad guy..” He explained

“Oh my god. Oh my god. OH MY GOD!” She screamed and broke down in his arms

“Shh..” He comforted her

“Laish ana?! Laish ana?! Jassim, Marzoug, who’s next?! YOU?!” She screamed and pulled away looking at him

“La2, I won’t hurt you..” He whispered to her

“Promise me..” she looked into his eyes

“I’d rather die than hurt you, I promise you..” He comforted her

She held onto him with her life, like he was the one that’ll pull her through this.. And without her knowing, he slowly was.. 3abdallah decided he would be her friend for now, help her through this, check up on her when she needed checking up, call her when she needed someone to talk to, hang out with her if she needed some fun, he would do whatever he could just to make her world that much brighter, even if just a wee bit, he was going to do so..

“Tabeen namshii?” He asked her when she calmed down

“La2.. Can we stay just a little bit longer?” She asked him quietly

“Akeed, laish la2.. “ He told her, “Tabeen ingoum namshii 3al ba7ar and you can talk about whatever you want..” He told her

“Eee, a7sanlii..” She said

“Yalla goumay..” He said as he stood up and held her hand

They started to walk, and Jenna started talking..

“Three years ago, 7abait wa7id.. o0 7baita with every nerve in my body.. 3a6aita dinyitee, ilee yabii kint a36eeh.. He was 18, o0 ana 16.. kil shay kan yabeenii asawii kint asaweeh.. a5rat’ha tadree shno sawa..? “ She asked him

“Shno?” He asked her

“He proposed to a girl I knews’ sister.. He started avoiding me, lemn adig, he won’t answer, lemn adizla message, ma kan irid.. I felt like my whole world crashed around me.. Slowly, little by little.. I fixed my once broken heart, o0 I stayed away from these love thingyy’s.. “ She explained

“Ouch..” He said

“You’re a guy and you said ouch.. Shit’haga ana agoul?” She asked him

“Madrii shagoulich, the only thing I know is that he didn’t deserve you.. “ He told her

She looked at him and he started explaining

“Jenna, you’re a girl that a million guys would want, you have a heart of gold, 3umrii ma shift wa7da mithlich, jamal o0 a5la8 o0 kil shay, all in one. Itha ohwa ma 8adar 8eemtich, intay la tafri6’een nafsich 3alaih, 5aleeh OHWA yil7igich.. o0 talking about my self, I swear, I’d run after you like a dog. 7atan law tafri6’een nafsich 3alay, mako a7sen minich yafri6’ nafsa 3alai, o0 it won’t even be like that, it’ll be me throwing myself at you! Il ghaly ghaly o0 il zain yafri6’ nafsa.. o0 intay, ghalya..” He told her

Without thinking she threw her hands around his neck and kissed him, she kissed him with every ounce of power she had left, she allowed her lips to shock his lips, her tongue to taste his lips, as his tongue tasted her mouth, she left his tongue to slowly leads it’s way into her mouth, it’s started slow and slowly increased in tempo.. Strong and passionate. And that kiss was the kiss that probably sealed the deal for them.

They both pulled away and slowly opened their eyes, Jenna licked her lips and looked away, shy she initiated that. 3abdallah looked at her with passion and love shining from his eyes.

“3indii shay thanii agoulich iyah..” He told her

“Hmm?” she asked

“A7ibich..” He said, “min youm shiftich wiya Marzoug, I knew you’d be the one for me, and I fell in love with you. I didn’t believe in love at first sight, but when I saw you, I did.. Because well, I fell in love with you when I first saw you..” He smiled

“Wow.. Madrii shagoulik..” she said still appalled

“Give me a chance, o0 let me prove it to you, I’ll never leave you, I’ll never hurt you, itha you want me to prove it to you that I love you, bacher a7achii ahalii 3ashan they talk to your parents, they minute they get back I want you to be called mine.” He told her

“Ola, 3abdallah la shda3wa.. I’ll give you a chance.. “ She told him and kissed his cheek

“Do you mean it?!” His eyes shone

“La2, I don’t. AKEED I DO!” She laughed as she saw his eyes turn from happiness, to heartbreak, to an ultimate ecstasy.

They walked back to his car, but before they got in, he got a hold of her wrist.

He got a hold of it and..

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To be continued! I hope you guys like it!

I’m thinking should I end it at part 30 and start new story willa tabounii akamil? I need your opinions!

I love y’allll!!! ;*

-Q

PS: Don’t forget to comment!

Heyyy

2009-11-07T20:02:00.003+03:00

Hii my loves:*

a7is ina I'm killing y'all with the cliffhangers, bes it's just to keep y'all pulled in;p

Part 28 will be posted tomorrow at around 4:30, bes please gouloulii, do you want me to end the story at part 30, or do you want me to just surprise you? La2na mazajii currently is in the writing mood:p I have a new story coming up..

It's gnna be a true story, most of it anyway..

As you all probably know, ana ga3da aktib 3ashan asalii rou7ii, o0 asaleekum wiyay.. and to give people who don't have hope in love, some hope.. Because well, love is the closest thing we have to magic..

I'm going to start writing my new story, and as soon as Starbucks Fantasy ends, I'll post it. If you want me to start posting it now, I will, bes mabii I confuse you. Fa it's up to you my loves;*

o0 please remember, spread the word about the blog, o0 don't forget to comment! ;*

a7ibkum! With every bit! :*

-Q